12.09.2014

I can't describe how I felt that day. She was studying in Allahabad. I had gone there to one of my friends' rooms just for 2 days to meet her. It was the month of September and I had taken leave from my work. As her number was coming off on Friday morning, I directly went to her college entrance along with my friend's classmate and I was waiting for her to come out. While we were waiting for her on the road, I suddenly saw her going to her classes.

Just then, I ran behind her and stood in front of her. After seeing me there for a moment, she was frightened and her eyes couldn’t believe that I was standing in front of her. Then she asked, "When did you come here!" That's what she said there. She was standing in front of me with the same beautiful face and sparkling eyes that had taken my heart away two years ago.

My heart skipped a beat. I felt like a kid gazing at the stars in the sky. I was lost in her eyes and her beauty, until she said, "Hey, are you okay?" "Uhm, yeah, I’m fine!"

"How are you doing? What a pleasant surprise. It's so amazing to see you here. How’s everyone at home?" she asked.

"Everyone's fine. Listen, let's sit near the canteen?" I blurted out without thinking about anything. But she refused, saying that she was getting late for her classes, and would come with me after her classes for sure.

"I know there won’t be a time because I don’t have your number anymore," I replied. She smirked and said that she had her exam lined up.

"Ah! Your studies always come in between but you know how patient I can be." I said and grabbed her hand. I didn't know where I got the courage from, but I kept holding on to her. "Please!", I requested her.

She nodded her head and agreed. We were starting to move and then I said, "There would be a crowd over there, why can't we go to a friend's room?" And finally, we reached the room. And I was quite clueless about what was happening and what I was doing there, with her. I just went with the flow, I guess.

Now when I think back, I feel that time and destiny were the directors of our unplanned meeting and we were just playing our respective roles. The moment, though, was beyond my imagination.

I can't describe how I felt when I met her that day - the love of my life, the only one I had ever loved and still do. It was like time itself had stopped. Like I had found the treasure of my life. There is an old saying that 'you don’t need words to express your love - your eyes, heart, and soul understand each other without saying anything'. That same power was controlling us there in the room.

She was avoiding my gaze, trying not to fall in the trap, once again with me. Maybe that's what happens when you meet the person you were once in love with.

We couldn’t say much to each other since we had nothing left in common between us. But that short, unplanned meeting helped me realize something very important - that she wasn't in love with me, anymore.

The girl I used to love was cute innocent, caring, understanding and down to earth but the one I met that day had a lot of attitude. I don’t know whether time changes or people change with time. But, she wasn't the same anymore.

For the first time that day, I realized how losing someone you once loved, feels like.

Today I believe that the universe wanted me to move on. It didn't want me to keep loving the person who had no feelings for me anymore. I promised myself never to look back again. Even though I know I will probably not be able to stop myself from loving her for the rest of my life.

I believe she’ll come back to me, one day. Probably the day she’ll lose everything in her life to the fake pride and senseless ego that didn’t let her recognize true love.

The thing I understood from my life is some stories are meant to be left incomplete. They're the same as the waves of an ocean that come once and gives us something and again come back to take everything with them. And that is meant to be lived for the rest of your life.

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