Husband, I Think I'm Finally Ready To Be A Single Mother Thanks To You

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It was not easy for me to leave my parents after getting married. My parents were also getting old like your parents. Still, I took the plunge for you.

I had many dreams - from starting a new married life with you to meet the new family members. But everything turned out to be the worst nightmare.

I had to see abusive fights between your parents daily. You also changed a lot after marriage. I used to wait for dinner so that we could have a word for a few minutes and eat together. But you'd turn up at midnight, that too drunk. Domestic violence was something I didn't expect but experienced with you.

I still loved you from the bottom of my heart. Your parents created lots of misunderstanding between us. I ignored all of it to stay with you. You had so much credit in your name that I had to take loans on my name to help you financially. Daily arguments with your mom and dad made me mentally weak. Finally, the day came when your mom told me to leave her house and told us to stay separated.

It was just fifth month into our marriage and we both left your house. I had never imagined that getting married would lead to this. I still stood with you, even my parents supported you when your parents threw us out of the house. You promised me that you will never turn towards them again and we started planning on starting our small family. Finally, we were going to be 3 from 2.

I was so happy but again, you broke your promise. You forced me to stay with your family again, hoping that after hearing the good news, their minds would change. You were wrong, they were not ready to change at all.

Even during my pregnancy, I kept crying. I was not getting proper food to eat, which was affecting our baby's health. In the 7th month, I went to stay at my parents' house. I was happy that I started getting proper food to eat and someone was there to take care of me. But you guys didn't seem happy seeing my happiness. You kept calling me to your place saying that you missed me. I explained to you that your parents were not taking care of me in your absence but you told me to adjust. Just because I loved you, I accommodated at this stage also.

You didn't have any savings but you kept consuming alcohol. I was scared for my baby's future. I knew after marriage my life was ruined, I didn't want the same thing to happen to my baby. Soon, our baby girl arrived. I was so happy to be the mother of such a beautiful girl. I thought at least now everything would permanently.

I was proved wrong again. After the delivery, I stayed at my mom's place for a month. I had not recovered fully and you called me again, saying that you missed me and our baby. I explained to you in every possible way that I needed rest and proper care at this stage so that I could look after our baby.

Your mom was a working woman so, at your place, only your dad would be there to look after me. But I needed my mom, you didn't understand what I needed at this time. And I had to come back to your place.

Everyone was very happy but your mom was again least bothered to take care of me. I was not getting food for 2-3 days. I had to cook food for myself separately. My body was getting weaker day by day. No proper rest, 24x7 awake looking after the baby, in addition to doing household chores. Still, you ignored these things because you wanted your daughter and wife in front of your eyes.

Just a single thought was running in my mind during this time - how can you be so selfish? Even you were least bothered about me and my health.

Because of all this, I took a break and came to my mom's place to stay again for a few days. But you again started calling me back. If I didn't turn up this time, you said you'd give me a divorce and will not pay the loan that I took for you in my name.

It was very easy for you to say all of this. Could you ever imagine how much pain I bore during my pregnancy? The labour pain almost killed me. You used to feel embarrassed looking at my stretchmarks, my health. You were pushing me into depression.

Till today, you are so rude to me that you have prepped me to be a single mother now. My self-respect that you think is my ego, is calling out to me. 

I think I'm finally ready to live with my daughter alone, I don't want to bring her up in an environment where a woman can't be given basic respect for just existing. 

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