It was April last year and life was going great. I had a steady job and my family was happy with it. I was living away from them in a company-provided accommodation in a township. I also had a girlfriend who was living in the building beside mine, and was working in the same company.

I loved her a lot. I know, it is a word which is being thrown around a lot but I really, truly loved her.

She was working in an administrative role whereas I was more on the technical side, due to which I was working in shifts and she was working 9 to 5. We both were living in the bachelor quarters so, we used to see each other a lot. We used to have dinners, sleepovers etc. like in any normal relationship. In May last year, I fell sick so, I went home which was after a long time but I was missing my girlfriend a lot at home. We used to text and be on calls day and night and I still remember that she sent a bouquet over to my home with a 'GET WELL SOON' message.

After 10 days, I came back and she met me in the morning. We had breakfast and lunch together. For dinner, we went on a date to an expensive restaurant which was 30 kms away. I was happy again, seeing her smile and having fun and that day passed. The next day, I woke up and there was a text from her which stated, 'I cannot do this anymore' and she told me that she wants to break up.

I was confused at first because the day before only, we had such a great time and now she was sending me this text. She said that she doesn't want to talk or meet and told me not to contact her again. I was shocked, it felt as if the whole world was crumbling down on me but still, there was a very big question of why she wants to break up?

But, I was not giving up on that and I persuaded her to tell me the real reason for breaking up with me. She finally gave in and her reply was that she had started developing feelings for her best friend who was also my good friend (or so, I thought). I immediately texted my friend to know the whole story but he promised me that he has no idea (also he was on OD). I started combining the clues I had, but it took me nowhere.

I felt my life was falling apart.

5 days later and a day before my birthday, that friend came to my place and met me. He consoled me saying that he had no idea about my girlfriend's (sorry ex) feelings. He wished me birthday in advance and left and I thought that maybe I have a chance at reconciliation. But my ex was in full-on reject mode. I tried talking with her but all I was getting were short, cold and downright insulting replies.

A month passed by and it was not any better, in fact, it was going to get much worse. One day, one of my closest friends showed me a screenshot. It was of that friend with my ex and turns out they had gone to Goa! So, that asshole of a friend of mine had actually blocked me on Instagram and then he was posting his statuses with my ex. It was horrible to see that with my eyes and now I was on full-on ballistic mode.

I confronted both of them. The guy was giving me shitty replies that he considers my ex as a friend and nothing more and all that nonsense. I was laughing and sobbing at the same time. I was like dude you are going with that girl, who broke up with me to be with you and you are telling me this also while blocking me on Instagram so that you can post f***ing statuses with her?!!

The whole chapter ended and I was so bitter, angry and hurt that even after confronting them, I was not able to find peace. I was still living in the same township and many times, I used to see them together, hanging out. I was finding ways to take out my anger and regain whatever confidence I had before.

So, one day when I was sitting idly pondering over the juncture at which my life had brought me. I remembered one thing, my ex was preparing for MBA entrance exam. What I was going to do after this changed my life forever.

I also ordered study material for the same entrance exam and I told myself one thing, 'I have to score more than her'. That's it...I told myself this and started studying too. I was still in shift duty so, I had to balance my work-sleep-study cycle. I told myself that she destroyed my pride, I am going to destroy her in that same exam. She had been preparing for it since a long time so, she had time and practice on her side whereas I started studying only 5 months before the exam and I had a shortage of both.

But, I had one thing which she didn't have - Drive. I had this drive in me which I had never felt before. I was in full-on insane mode, studying day & night, practicing the concepts again and again. There were times when I didn't sleep for 2-3 days consecutively because I had only one aim in mind and that was to score more than her. I was never good at competitive exams, in fact, I sucked in them and that is why I also had a fear of the same. But now, I had the drive and I started sensing that maybe it is my time now.

However, it is the irony of life that when you blame it so much for being difficult, it throws you a curveball. A few days later, I got a job offer at a different company. The money was also more and the location was also close to my home. I accepted the offer and left my current job. Everything was happening at a perfect time. I had left the job and had 20 whole days before the exam. So, I pushed myself for the final stretch and appeared for the exam.

Now, here I am, 4 months have passed since the results have come out. I scored much much more than my ex but now it doesn't even matter to me. The reason with which I had started studying for an MBA has now morphed into something more than that and now I am genuinely considering the bright prospects it holds for my career. I have given many interviews for many colleges so far and I am waiting for the results of the same.

As for my ex, I don't even know! Now, after cracking the exam and after so many months months, I have realized one thing. I was not proving to anyone what I can achieve going through the lowest of my lows, I was just proving to myself. I am happy that I channelized my energy, rage into this, rather than crying over it or doing any stupid things which we hear people do, in such situations.

Life is beautiful!!

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