I Share A Child With My Husband, But My Heart Belongs To Someone Else

Anonymous Anonymous in Life Is Tough on 29 October, 2017

 

I was 26 years old when I married my husband. He was five years older to me. Today, I have a two-year-old child with him. Despite a breakup before marriage and occasional fights with my husband, I am happy and settled in my married life. My husband is loving and caring and helps me with my daily chores too. Since my marriage with him, I haven't thought about my ex or how my life would have been with him. But after all these years of married life, I met my soulmate. 

I met him through a common friend. He was roughly the same age as me, married and with a child who was about the same age as my son. We didn't have anything in common. In fact, he was absolutely opposite in nature to me; he was calm and silent while I am restless and loud. I received a friend request from him on Facebook and within no time we became good friends. We started spending a lot of time together just talking, texting or meeting for lunch. My husband would stay away from home due to work and visit me only twice a week, on weekends. 

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I didn't realize when I started developing feelings for my friend.  One night, he too expressed his feelings for me and both of us thought that we were merely experiencing infatuation towards each other because we were spending too much time together and so we left it at that.

My husband and I went on a trip for a week and I had zero communication with my friend. That was when I realized that I was in love with him. This revelation took me by surprise and I could not wait to talk to him. That one week felt like an unbearably long year to me and I was unable to spend quality time with my husband. Every second, my mind was occupied with the thoughts of my friend back at home. When we finally returned, I told my friend all this and he confessed that he too was in love with me and could not imagine his life without me. 

From then on, we would stay in touch with each other day and night, except on the days when my husband was at home. We felt the same for each other and this was why our relationship kept getting stronger by the day, making it harder for us to leave each other.  Even though he was an average looking guy, to me he seemed nothing short of my knight in shining armour, my prince charming.

I know it is wrong of me to develop feelings for someone despite being married to a man who loves me, but trust me it is beyond my control.
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I have cross checked my feelings multiple times and every time I've ended with the conclusion that it is, indeed, love. I've never experienced these feelings for my husband or my ex.

I feel some kind of magic with my friend and maybe this magic is what the world calls love?

After getting married to someone else, I found my soulmate and the love of my life. I can't leave him, come what may.

Love should be mad and extraordinary, infused with the power to make you forget everything and my friend gives me this feeling. I have never experienced anything like this with anyone before him.

I don't know what will happen to us, but I just want to thank him for coming into my life and filling it with his colours.

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