I'm finding it difficult to express myself because a lot happened to me that I remembered today. I've never told anyone about this before because I'm a boy. But the problem is so significant that we should educate our children about good touch and bad touch.

When I was in the 3rd grade, my aunt's children came to stay with us. One of them, 'X', was in 8th grade. Since we only had two rooms in our house, all the kids used to adjust and sleep together. 

One night, X made me touch his penis while he was naked. I didn't understand what was happening at that time.

This continued for about 1-2 weeks, and then he started putting it in my mouth. It made me feel really dirty, but I didn't know who to tell or how to explain because it was all very strange for me.

He kept doing this to me for 2 years on a daily basis, which made me lose interest in studying and making friends. I became afraid of small things, like if someone yelled in a house, I would get scared. 

I even failed my class (I can't give the reason because if I do, someone might figure out who I am). After that, some new students came to my class, and I became friends with them. That gave me some confidence, and as a result, I started becoming violent. I used to be scared of small things, but when I got new friends, I felt powerful and could fight over anything.

By the time I reached the 6th grade, I mustered up the courage to tell X to stop, but I never had the courage to tell anyone else about it.

Later, I realised that because of all this, I had become an extremely aggressive and violent person. I just wanted power so that no one could say anything to me. 

I even got a girlfriend, but I never shared any of this with her.

Many times, I felt like retaliating against 'X', which he understood, so he stopped coming to my hometown. 

Later, I moved to another city and forgot everything, but because of this childhood trauma, I became power-hungry, which still reflects in my nature today.

I don't know how much of it was my fault, but at that time, I really didn't understand why it was happening to me.