I Dreamt Of Success But All I Got Was A Mess

Karishma Talreja Karishma Talreja in Life Is Tough on 8 October, 2017

It was raining, I sat near my window with a blanket and a cup of coffee, thinking, “It is very beautiful over there, I don’t know where exactly this there is, but I believe it is out there somewhere and I hope it is beautiful.”

“Fight for it now and flaunt it later” - this is the journey of a girl who carried heavy dreams in her heart.

She dreamt of becoming like her dad – responsible, caring, loving and most importantly, INDEPENDENT. She is not the girl who has faced struggle in life, because by God’s grace, she received everything in her hands even before she had a chance to ask for it. Coming from a rich family background and being born to supportive parents, and having loving siblings were some of the extraordinary and priceless assets she was blessed with.

But deep down in her heart, she wished to have some more.

As soon as she was done with her graduation, she started looking for a job - the kind of job that defined her, a job that would make her feel independent, a job that would make her stand tall in front of her parents, and lastly, a job that would keep her soul happy all day long. But they say that if you ask for something and you get it instantly, this world would suddenly turn so magical. After giving six good interviews, she landed up in her 1st job where everything seemed to be quite okay. Her routine changed from being a 10 am person to being a 7 am person, from enjoying the comfort of car to commuting in the crowded trains, from having three leisure hours in a day to merely thirty minutes of me time to have dinner in silence.

She had started enjoying this life of self-earning and life-lessons but was secretly hoping that things would change. There was always a sad corner in her heart, because she believed that she could get better.

Until the day arrived when she seriously wanted to quit and move out of the job. She took this as part of her learning experience and started hunting for another job with better hopes. But the real struggle had just begun. The new job that she managed to get, had a lot of pros and a few cons. But those few cons almost killed her. And you know what the saddest part of her life was?

She couldn’t share her office problems at home as her dad would have told her to leave instantly, sit at home and enjoy the lavish life that he had created for her.

She went on a lot of business trips with her new colleagues to different places of the world, got acquainted with some highly esteemed people in their domain, got a higher pay as compared to all her friends, but even after including all this in the pros list of her job, all that glittered was not gold. Coming to the cons now – her boss was cunning, the working atmosphere was the kind where she could hardly breathe. She was a sweet girl stuck in a sea of morons who always wanted to attack her, demean her, and overload her with work. She never got any days off, so basically, she was dying all seven days a week, for ten hours a day. The company was huge and had some big concerts which could make her resume shine like never before, and this was the only reason that kept her going.

When you have a goal to work towards, and more importantly, a strong desire to achieve it, you will become blind to all the obstacles. She was a rich girl and could have easily got out of the situation by talking to her family about this, but she thought of keeping this big burden of useless pressure to herself. She hid her deepest feelings so well, she forgot where she placed them.

She used to cry every single night, and couldn’t share this with anyone. This is something which I believe a lot of girls face, when you want to choose the difficult path in life, and you can’t share the suffering with anyone because you don’t deserve the suffering but others will not understand that it is a crucial part of your learning experience. You try to stand up for yourself, and learn to fend for yourself. You up your survival game, all the while wishing for things to get better. You strongly believe in this motto, “Fight for it now and flaunt it later.”

Beautiful things grow to a certain height, then they fall and fade off, breathing out memories as they decay. Her bed became her secret place, also known as the land of tears.

Soon, she was done managing one of the best concerts of India and could proudly flaunt this to the world, keeping all the secret tears in her heart that marked the journey of getting there.

She achieved her goal by not leaving things midway even when there was a 10,000 KW force against her trying to put her down at every single step. Today, her parents are super proud of her, her friends admire her, her younger siblings look up to her.

One fine day, that cunning boss finally understood what he did with this determined woman and couldn’t stop apologizing for his behavior. But I think it was too late then, because she had her resignation papers in hand and had to get them signed.

She had silently climbed the mountain towards the peak she aimed for. She had promised herself never again to give a huge part of her time to a company that doesn’t give a sh*t about anyone.

If she was still employed at that same job, she’d be waking up every day like an unhappy, unfulfilled, unmotivated drone, putting in just enough energy to keep the system going so she could return the next day to repeat it all over again.

She would put more energy into dreaming a new life of freedom instead of doing actual work at the day job. She would still feel trapped and unable to do anything about it.

It was like a bomb went off. Despite everything that she went through, she still believed that people are really good at heart. Finally, she got her dream job where her colleagues were her best friends and the work pressure was negligible. I believe that in such moments, it is important to support others and with a kind of a motivational kick.

So, to all the lovely ladies out there reading my anecdote, I have this to say to you, “Never give up.”

It is probably one of the most clichéd phrases you’ll hear as you are working on building your career. But there’s a reason these sayings are clichés, you never know when success lies just around the next corner. So don’t give up, and surrender to the journey because it is going to be worth its while some day.

As for me, I’m turning my “mess” into my “message”, and using it as a tool in my kit to create my own reality, and help as many people as I can along the way. Thus, as the title says, “Fight for it now and flaunt it later.” Ciao!
Editor's Note:

Like they say, "the dream is free, the hustle is sold separately." Anyone can dream, but the only difference between those who achieve their dreams and those who don't, is perseverance. Share this story of perseverance.