To my unborn child,
I do not know what went wrong.
In these six years of marriage,
I could not have you.
 Though my husband and I love each other,
But our family does not feel complete.
There is always something that goes on in my head.
The question is, Why could I not have a baby?

There is not a single night that I don't have nightmares
Of not having you.
My baby and I had gone through so much pain.
That I do not have any positivity alive in me.
There is absolutely no one,
Who would understand my pain?
I am undergoing various fertility treatments,
Which is draining me mentally and physically.

Every month, I have my period, and I start expecting.
Maybe this month I can get,
Those two pink lines in the pregnancy kit.
With every month, I only lose hope.
Again, the same way it goes
It is so emotionally draining.
Sometimes, I curse my womb.
As to why my body cannot have you.

I search for answers, which I know I will not get.
There are so many women
With so many problems, but
Still, they can have a child.
I understand that bearing a child is
Not everything, but
When someone says you would be a great mother,
My heart aches, and tears roll!