I Can't Trust My Cheating Husband But I Don’t Want My Daughter To Suffer

Anonymous Anonymous in Life Is Tough on 28 August, 2017

I am a 28-year-old married woman. Ours was a love cum arranged marriage. I was this shy girl who fell in love with him at the age of 20 and today, I badly regret it.

At first, everything was perfect between us. But after a year of the relationship, he told me that he had a physical relationship with his ex. I was traumatized because I’d not expected this from him. I’d always dreamt of a man who would be mine and only mine.

But I was so deeply in love with him that I said to myself, “It’s alright because that was his past.”
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I strictly warned him to not keep any contact with his ex. Then he started becoming possessive about me. He didn’t allow me to go anywhere with my friends. I was fed up with his behavior and decided to not marry him. I told my parents that I didn’t want to marry him because I didn’t like his behavior. At first, all my family members supported me but this guy managed to convince them.

My family, being like any typical family, said that since I was a girl and had roamed around with this boy, what would people say?

They started emotionally blackmailing me! I had no option but to give in and marry him. After marriage, things did get better between us. 3 years later, we were blessed with a beautiful baby girl. He had always wished for a girl child and was very happy. But our happiness didn’t last long.

He started having an extra marital affair with a girl at his workplace (he works on a ship). I was majorly heartbroken. I learnt about this affair on my own and so I tried to make him understand, even requested him to not do anything that would affect our baby and our marriage.

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Because once a third person comes between your relationship, it is very difficult to survive through it.

When he came down on vacation, he still tried to keep in touch with the girl by lying to me but I caught him. He begged me and asked for forgiveness.

Like a fool, I gave him another chance because I didn’t want our baby to suffer.

After 3 months, he joined his duty. Whenever he would call me, I would lovingly tell him to not do anything wrong again. But when he returned after 6 months, I discovered to my utter shock that he was still cheating! Through his calls and WhatsApp messages I realized that he was still in touch with that girl.

That day was a nightmare for me! I broke down!

I am still finding it hard to trust him even though he is begging for one last chance.
Author's Note:

I am fed up of my life but can’t give up because of my little angel whom I love more than anything else. Please advice what should I do. 

Editor's Note:

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