I'm a 30 year old woman and I'm madly in love with a man. We have been together for the last 4 years, but now he is getting married to someone else because of his family pressure. 

Our families are against our relationship as we are from different religions. 

I live with my mom and elder brother; and unfortunately, my father is no longer with us. My brother struggles with mental illness, making me feel unsafe at home, so I avoid talking to him.

My mother is very superstitious, and no one understands me after my dad. 

My lover is getting married in September. I begged him to marry me, but he declined due to family reasons, forcing us to end our relationship. 

Two days later, I met him and asked if he could stay in touch with me till he gets married. He agreed, so right now we talk and meet, but with each passing day,  it's killing me inside. 

The thought that he will marry another girl in just two months is tearing me apart. I can't live without him. It seems like he has accepted this situation and is willing to compromise. Witnessing him with someone else would be too difficult for me, especially since he's my neighbour. I don't have the strength for it. 

I've tried to move on and not care for him, but loneliness makes it hard to forget him.