June 22, 2014 — I was a happy 24 year old girl, ready to take on the world after completing my education. I chose Jaipur as the city to take my career forward.

By the grace of God, I got a good job after a few days. It was a very famous e-commerce organization. With full determination and willpower, I started working there. 

My job was going well and I had a very busy schedule. I soon met a guy who turned out to be the biggest mistake of my life.

Being a law graduate I spent most of my time in learning new sections of law and doing whatever my work required me to do. When I met him, everything changed. I was ready to explore a world outside of my law books. His name was Arun (name changed) and he was a very successful businessman. Like any other teenage couple, we spent a lot of our time together. We'd often go for long drives.

Arun was always very interested in my family, he used to ask me a lot of questions about them. I assumed it was probably because I was from a different city. Whenever I asked him any questions, he used to quickly change the topic. It was fishy but I chose to ignore it because I was in love and I didn't want to spoil what I had with him. With every passing day, our feelings towards each other grew stronger. 

Next thing I know, I had sex with him. I lost my virginity to him.

I started considering Arun almost as a husband thereafter. I would act like his wife too, I would shop for him, buy his underwear and what not. After some time I realised that Arun just called me when he wanted to have sex. He would call me and we'd do it, even if the intercourse was painful.

Soon our love talks became our loud fights, he took me for granted just to satisfy his sexual needs. Even though I was alone in my flat, he used to come over for sex and leave immediately, never staying back. After intercourse, he used to give me pills so that I didn't get pregnant. I don't know if it was a side-effect but I was frustrated. I started drinking and smoking just to keep myself busy. I wanted to stay away from him. I screamed at him many times, asking him to not trouble me but at the end, he'd always create a scene and say sorry. 

I had a miscarriage for the first time. I didn't even know that I was pregnant! A miscarriage, lots of girl problems, and a hundred instances of intercourse later, I found out that Arun was already married. He also had two kids. 

His last statement to me was, "We know how to take advantage of all you girls from outside the city. You're used now." It's been two years since then, I am with my family now. I had a happy life, I was ambitious. Today, I'm just going on with my routine aimlessly. This man just entered my life unnecessarily and ruined it for no fault of mine. I couldn't do anything.

I don't think I'll ever be able to trust a man again, they scare me. And it is all that shameless married man's fault. 

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