I’ve been married for 19 years now and have two teenage sons. My marriage was an arranged one and my husband works abroad. He is a sadist and has always enjoyed torturing my kids and me; it worked since I’ve not been brave enough to stop this.
He cheated my family too, told us that he’s got a well-paying job in Dubai when in reality, he hasn’t even passed the 7th grade. I can’t do anything to gain support because I don’t have a job and I can’t leave my kids with him.
This man I live with, I won’t even call him my husband, he’s taken all the money that my parents sent me, all the Jewellery that I got with me when I came from my home and today, I’m sure he’s a womanizer too.
Today, I’m staying alone with my sons in Mumbai, he barely sends us some cash to continue our lives here while he stays alone in Dubai.
I got hold of his phone and found out that he occasionally visits prostitutes, sleeps with girls who are not of age. He has pictures of him with these girls and he made a joke about it when I confronted him about it.
He spends around 250 to 500 Dirhams on these girls and even told me that there’s an agency that supplies these girls to men like him.
His family doesn’t know any of this, except his sister-in-law; they all tell me to just wait for a few more years, once he earns enough, he will come back to you and the kids… but they don’t know what I do. And how knowing this hurts me. Tortures me, every single day.
I don’t have the money or the courage to leave him, and I don’t want my kids to grow up knowing who their father truly is. I’ve shielded them for as long as I can.
I’ve thought about blackmailing him, but when I tried once, he told me he’d throw me and our children out of his house. This man is dirty and his family supports him. I don’t know how to find peace in my life.
There have been times, late at night, when I’ve thought about ending everything. But I can’t do this to my sons. They will have to live with a vile creature like him, and then what?
I need help. I need advice: I have no friends I can talk to, he’s made sure of that. I can’t speak to his family members, he’s already turned them against me and I don’t have the qualifications to get a good job to support my two sons. What do I do? Whom do I turn to? Please help me.