A Letter To The Caller Who Changed My Mind When I Was Ending My Life
It was 11:10 am when I got back to my room. For the first time in all these years, I thought my four bed AC room was too big for me. But I thought this soulless surrounding is appropriate for my intentions. I had just spoken to you before coming up to my room. I told you how upset I was but little did you know about my future plans. I looked around and found that the rooms near my room were locked, there was no one in the hostel corridor and the caretakers had gone for a snack. I decided this is it, the moment had arrived where the last resort had to be attempted.
For a second, I looked back and wondered what went wrong? I had the perfect family, the best boyfriend, so then why was I thinking of taking this drastic step which would not only put a question on my existence but also destroy my family and boyfriend.Share this quote
I was always a happy-go-lucky, chubby, carefree girl who did not know what she wanted from life and lived through all ups and downs of life with a smile. Then why was this girl pushed to commit this sin today? I took off the ring you had given me from the fourth finger of my left hand and placed it in the ring box in my cupboard. I didn’t want to see it and fall weak. I knew medication overdose hardly had any effect on me so I climbed up on my roommate’s bed and struggled to find a way to tie my bedsheet to the fan above. Once I saw the bedsheet swing in the room, I saw fear at its worst.
I felt this weird sense of pain, like I had faced a massive defeat. I knew I had survived it all in my life, from being cheated on to being molested twice, I had been through it all but still lived through it. But today, I had lost.Share this quote
Amongst all this hassle, my phone rang, it was you. You had an interview in a couple of hours so I decided to take the call. I acted normal and did not tell you anything about what I was up to. But you sensed it in my voice and said, “Kiddo seriously mera ch*tiya banayegi? Ab bata kyu ro rahi hai.” I started laughing while tears rolled down my cheeks. That was the moment I knew I had to live with you through this, not for me, not for my career, not for my mom and dad but for you.
I owe my life to you, if it wasn’t for you man, I wouldn’t be here writing this.Share this quote
Yours Truly, Kiddo
This made me smile. Share this story of finding light in the dark because maybe someone out there needs to read it and find light.