Dear Jaan,

I really love you but it's sad that you neither respected my feelings nor me. You came into this relationship just to get out of some shit that was going on in your life, to make her feel jealous and now when she is not here to watch us anymore, my presence is of no importance to you.

I loved you. And for your happiness, I changed myself.

From being a happy-go-lucky kind of person, I am now dull and lonely. And now, you have conveniently returned to your life because you wanted to live your life the way you want. But about me? If you don't love me anymore, then just tell me or even if you are in love with someone else, then also let me know but please don't do this to me. I can never express what you are making me go through.

I have faced really bad times in my life but I have never felt so weak and depressed.

You don't even know that I tried to harm myself twice because I just couldn't control my emotions. I am tired of crying and fighting. When you told me that you want some space, I gave it to you but you always end up hurting me and shattering me. Now I am suffering from anxiety and depression. You don't even bother to look at me, so you can't feel my pain.

The guy who initially said he just can't see me cry now says it's just drama.

You say that I am trying to teach you a lesson, just like you've learnt from your past relationships. I always wanted to find out, what wrong am I doing to you? It is only because of your insecurities and your mistrusting attitude that you could never see my love and honesty towards you? I never expected this from you. This was not a teenage love or a mere infatuation.

I loved you so badly that I am now suffering from anxiety and depression. You taught me that there's nothing called love, it is all just infatuation.

And to get into a relationship is the biggest mistake I did. Because I thought relationships make us stronger and I never thought that the reality is so bitter, that relationships just end up shattering you. They drive you insane. I don't know how long our so-called relationship will last but I just hope it lasts more than my breath. Because I loved you with all my heart but you could never see my love for you.

Someone rightly said that, “beauty lies in the eyes of beholder.” I pity you.

If only, you could have seen my love for you and had respected it, your life would have been so beautiful. Maybe you'll find this love in some other girl but you drained all the love I had in me and still it wasn't enough for you. I always told you that I just want your love. But I guess it was too much to ask for.

Those sleepless nights and the promises that you made to me when we came into this relationship, they still haunt me.

I don’t remember the last time I had a good night’s sleep. I don't want this life anymore. I am dying each passing day. Loving you took away the spirit from my life. You are my jaan, and without you, I am just a body. I wish you could understand me and we would have made a very happy couple. But your love ended up breaking me.

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