The Woman I Built Myself Up For, Left Me Stranded

Anonymous Anonymous in Your Story on 28 February, 2018

Read the previous part here: She Was The Perfect Girl And Our Love Story Had Only Just Begun

We had broken up at that time but I was working on myself to make her realize that I was better. My priority had always been her, and her happiness. She deserves the best and I was working to make myself the best. So, after numerous applications, I got accepted for an MBA program in a prestigious college in the USA. I had tears in my eyes and my parents were super happy. I called her that very second and told her that I’ll be going to the US. We decided to meet the next day at Hauz Khas for a while.

I met her that day after months and seeing her brought back all the emotions I had. She saw me and the progress I had made.
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I know her well, she has always wanted me to become better with or without her and she was happy that day. We went on a treasure hunt that day and fell in love with each other, yet again. The more times we fell in love with each other all over again, the more special it became. This phase was the best for us. We were so much into each other that I didn’t want to leave her and go. She was my life and always in my mind. I had promised to spend my whole life with her. Why shouldn’t I? It had been so many years that we were together, and even though it was on and off, she gave me the maximum amount of happiness.

She was amazing, and I didn’t want all the times that we had motivated each other, spent with each other, hugged each other, loved each other, and just been there for each other, go to waste.

I knew that it would be impossible for us to keep up in a long-distance relationship, but I always felt that there is a bigger force that had a plan for us. We cannot live without each other and the only reason we would fight was because we had stopped seeing each other more often. How would we survive in a long-distance relationship? She made my last few weeks in Delhi, the most special for me. I still remember all the effort she put into making it a success. We both had dreamt of settling down in the USA someday. I always told her that I would make it work and never let her down. So, after 4.5 years of being addicted to each other, I left. I sat at the airport and cried while going to the USA. I was not at all excited, she is my lifeline and she trumps everything else. But what choice did I have?

My parents had so much faith in me and I didn’t want to be a loser. So, I came to the USA and studied my ass off.
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I had only my end goal in mind, settling with her in the States. I got a great GPA and landed an awesome internship. However, in between, we obviously took our habitual breaks on and off. I never forced her to be fully committed to me because I always wanted her to realize it herself, and be happy with her choice. I never wanted to plead with her, and I always believed in us. So, I got the internship and did well. I was on the right track and was working on building our lives in the US. Meanwhile, I wanted her to enjoy her life away from me, and concentrate on her work.

The thing that she was most passionate about was start-ups, and I supported her.

I was and still am willing to give up all the money that I have for her dreams to work. But even though I was on the right track with my studies and motivating myself for the future and the dream we both had, a big shocker came. She had moved on completely and started dating someone else. Wow! This news was not a new thing for me but still, it breaks my heart every time I think about it.

She started dating someone else and really liked that guy.

We could not live without talking to each other at least thrice a day but since she found someone else, she did not need me at all in her life. She moved on in seconds and blocked me from each and every app. It’s not her fault at all but mine and ours. Now the chapter is closed forever and it’s hard for me to digest this truth and live with it.

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The purpose and motivation and the most beautiful part of my life has gone away and her boyfriend is probably the luckiest man on the planet.

With this long note, I want to say that I am grateful to have known her. She is and will always be the best part of my life and I will always love her more than anything, no matter what happens. She has been my only source of happiness for so long and I had been hers too, but I understand that she wants to end it with us, once and for all, and move on with other people. This is probably the last test I have to go through to make us work and I can’t fail on the last hurdle. So, I hope she lives her life and remains as awesome as she has always been.

I am so happy to have had her in my life and I just believe in the fact that if it’s meant to be, no one can stop us from creating our happiness together forever.
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