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He's Cheated On Me Twice But I Still Won't Let Him Go

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Hi, my name is AB. I was happy when I joined my new company in Noida. I got an extremely good offer and was satisfied with the salary I was offered too. After a month into this new job, I met a guy and from the day I saw him, I fell for him. He didn’t hesitate to give me indications that he was interested in me too. So when he asked me for my number, I didn’t hesitate and I gave it to him.

A lot of you right now are probably thinking that’s not a great idea, but well, he was cute and I didn’t see the harm in doing it then. We quickly started talking to him and one day, when he dropped me home, we kissed. I didn’t tell him then, but I was falling for him, badly. I guess at the time, he didn’t think much of it too.

When I asked him if he was single, he said, yes. A month later, I found out that he was dating a girl, from our office. I confronted him about this and he asked me why I was asking him this question since we’re “just friends”.

With nothing to say to that, especially since I had begun caring for him, or more importantly, loving him. I know he knew this, but he didn’t say a word. Nothing. I felt strange. I don’t know why though, do you? I know he doesn’t love me, he said these things take time, I guess I have no choice but to believe him. One day, I asked him for a reason, he, of course, had none.

A few days later, I had the chance to peek into his phone, and so I took it. Turns out that he’s with someone... the girl from our office whom he was initially rumoured to be with.

I asked him why he didn’t tell me this… and again, he said nothing. Finally, I took her number and thought I’ll confront her myself. She told me that they’ve been dating for almost a year now. All I could do was to nod at it. And then I told her everything about him and me. She told me that she didn’t want to speak to him anymore.

But, she didn’t. In fact, she told him that he should stop talking to me, forever and that she will be his, forever. He picked her. Everything was going against me, and I just let it. We stopped talking for a while until he finally messaged me and asked me to meet him.

When I did, he kissed me and told me that he’s going to leave her because he knows how important I am to him. He promised me that he’s going to leave her. Within a few days, he actually left her and told me that he wanted only me. He never told me that he loved me, but we were talking again and that’s all that mattered.

A couple of days later, I found out that he was cheating on me. He apologized, and I forgave him. Within a month, I began feeling strange again. I asked him if something was wrong and again, he said nothing. I asked him again and again, but he remained quiet. Once more, I checked his phone and I found out that he’s been dating someone else for three years!

I was beyond upset now. I asked him why he kept cheating on me. I went to this girl and confronted her too. I told her that she’s been with a man who has cheated on her twice, one was out and now there’s just two of us.

She broke up with him after I did. And as soon as that happened, he came crawling back to me, begging me to be with him. Once again, I forgave him.

Last month, on my birthday, he broke up with me. He told me that I was constantly checking his phone and he didn’t appreciate this ‘lack of trust’. I begged him to stay with me, but he didn’t listen to me and abused me a lot as he left.

I tried to talk to his friends, to get them to talk to him but they all just took his side and told me to forget about him. Everyone told me to forget about him, everyone but my heart. My brain, it all said that he was a good man and I should trust him.

I wanted to believe that he respects women, but the truth is far from it, he thinks girls are nothing but flesh who are out there for me to devour.

I’m too hurt to think more about this, but I know that I love him. I don’t know what’s right or wrong, but I know that I want him back in my life.

Please help me.

Please, guys… Tell me what to do to make him come back to me. 

 

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