Someone once said- when you lose somebody, no candle, no prayer is going to make up for the fact that the only thing you have left is a hole in your life where that somebody that you cared about used to be. Two days back, one of my best friends lost her mother. People were there- crying, giving their condolences, and remembering their time with her. And there she was, standing all alone in that crowd. She was crying and I did not tell her to stop.
When I saw her, I could see what she wanted. In this crowd perhaps, all she needed was someone to take away her pain... literally. Have you ever wondered if it is possible to transfer your pain to someone else? Who would help you out? When people say that they want to take your pain away do they actually meant it or is it just a phrase to be used nowadays? According to me, it's just a phrase.
When you lose someone, you have to go through it all alone. No one can help you forget the pain. They can help you put on a fake smile on your face. They can't make you forget. When she was lying there, her eyes closed, trying to sleep, she was actually trying to shut the world around her, the world that was trying to show how sad it is for her loss.
But you know what the harsh reality is- these people will leave in 2 or 3 days. But she will be left behind with all the memories. She will have to fight with herself, the fight between remembering her mother and moving on. And she will have to go through this not once or twice, but a million times, in all her moments of sadness and joys.
In the moments when she will want someone to talk to wholeheartedly, this crowd will not be there. These people can't fill that hole in her life. No one can. Only a mother can ask for your choices when you go shopping. Only a mother will think about your wishes and your dreams. Only a mother can help you to fight the demons inside your mind.
You can't bare your soul in front of anyone without the risk of getting hurt, except for your mother. No one can do all this selflessly and she knows this. She will have to be the woman of the house now. She will have to take care of her father and her brother just like everyone was telling her. And she will do this.
But the big question is... Who will take care of her? I wish I could bring her mother back. I wish I could help her out. I know I can't take her pain away. But I don't want her to feel alone in all this.
But no matter how hard we all try, she will feel lonely. Because someone once said, "when you lose somebody, no candle, no prayer is going to make up for the fact that the only thing you have left is a hole in your life where that somebody that you cared about used to be."