I Was Married Off When I Was 19 And Now I'm In An Extra Marital Affair Thanks To My Husband

Anonymous Anonymous in Single Women Bad Women on 11 March, 2017

Yes dear husband, you made me fall for another man.

It's been 4 years since I got married at the tender age of just 19. My step mother played a major role in getting me married at such an early stage in my life. I have been a very ambitious and dream chaser kind of a person but all my dreams were shattered when I lost my mother. 

I was 15 then and so I was made to marry a total stranger at the age of 19, who was 8 years older than me.

Everything seemed fine for the first few months but soon I got the reality check of the family I was married into. My husband is just a spineless character who wouldn't speak up even if somebody kills me. He doesn't earn well and he doesn't respect me or my dreams because he has no dreams of his own.

I have a 2-year-old kid but post his birth my husband's sexual desires just died. He wouldn't have an erection ever and wasn't ready to consult a doctor because it's too hard for a man to accept any questions on his manhood.

This marriage has been more of a deal than a real relationship, where I am supposed to take care of his family and in return, I will get food and shelter. I am no more than a servant in his house who has to stay shut at all times.

I know that things have become absolute hollow between us only because he doesn't have anything to care about. He doesn't care about me or his own son. That leaves me frustrated, both emotionally and sexually. 

So I met this really nice guy from my school who made me feel desired and loved. He told me that I have full rights to be free, to live my own life. My husband's ignorance made me fall for my old friend.

My husband's emotional and sexual hollowness made me commit this beautiful sin of adultery. I know it's wrong but living a life that is no less than daily pain is the worst.

Now I am in an extra marital affair and I do feel guilty about it sometimes but I love this feeling of being loved, which I have missed ever since I was 15 years old.