Life really changes as you grow up. There was a day, we badly wanted to grow up and go out and find jobs, just like our elder cousins. Today, I wonder why I grew up at all.
I am a girl who is 24 and has a pathetic life already, married at the age of 22 with the guy of my choice. I was lucky enough to have parents who respected my choice but wasn't lucky enough in choosing a guy properly. I had to undergo verbal and physical torture frequently and all he wanted was my body. If I denied sex he used to question whether I had an affair. He wasn't working and though I was brought up in a good family, I started to work to support him and look after my needs because I didn't want my husband to feel insecure about his financial condition.
I used to tolerate his physical torture thinking that he is frustrated and he will become normal. Trust me, any woman who is undergoing such things and giving a chance to the person thinking that they would change is a mere waste of your time and energy. Such people aren't in normal conditions because a man who tortures a woman is a psycho. He will never change.
I left him when he hit me black and blue yet another time. I came to my parents’ place. My patience level dropped down after the continuous torture. My parents later got to know about him. It was decided that I would get out of this relationship.
Meanwhile, I found a man who was respecting me and loving me in every true sense. Neah! I am not guilty about it. I didn’t cheat on my husband while I was with him. I developed strong feelings for the other man, only after stepping out of my relationship with my then husband. I haven’t got divorced yet but I am hundred percent sure that I am not going back to the wife-beater ever again! I deserve to live with a person who respects me. We had a physical relationship too and I feel happy that I have finally found the right guy whom I can trust.
I can already sense a few eyebrows raising at my confessions. Loving is not a crime and I repeat, I am not guilty about it. I am true to myself and even my ex-husband. I have never cheated on him. But it is time to move on. I have tried to save our marriage but I have finally given up.