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I Had Decided I'll Say Yes To The First Guy Who Came To My Family And So I Did

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I am the eldest one in my family. Our family is not so well off so I started working at a very young age. I did my best to help my family, especially my younger sister and brother. In fact I paid my college fees on my own. When I was 22 I suffered from a paralytic attack but God saved me.

I fell in love with a person who was not of the same religion but I loved him, did everything for him. His shopping, his movie rentals, lunch, outings, everything I paid for. But whenever I discussed marriage he used to change the topic. Because of this attitude of his, I had problems with my family also. Nobody spoke with me for months. 

I used to not eat at home everyday, there was a fight at home with my family. I used to cry everyday, my family didn't understand me. That day I decided whosoever asks for my hand in marriage from my family, I will say yes.

Finally, I got married to this guy who had a lower salary than mine but just to make my family happy and to prove them that I was not with my ex anymore, I married him.

The problems began immediately. I delivered my baby within a year of the marriage. By the way, that was the happiest day of my life. I used to go to a doctor on my own, get my medicines on my own. My husband used to not give me a single penny and also came to know about my past. He never understood me and took advantage of me. Till date he fights with me.

I made my house on my own, also taking care of my daughter on my own. My husband doesn't love me, he only makes love with me because of his own selfish reason.

I cry to buy a dress for just Rs. 300, I earn enough but can't spend it on myself. I shouldn't have taken such a big decision of my life like this. 

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