I Was Afraid He'd Ask For 'That' On Our First Night But What Actually Happened Made Me Fall In Love With Him
With every step bringing him closer to me, my heart clenched tighter with fear.
With every step bringing him closer to me, my heart clenched tighter with fear.
By evening I had decided that I won’t relocate to be unemployed again.
I only now realize that it was the ex-boyfriend you were texting all evening,
I feel weird to be his second.
I moaned as I could feel him inside of me.
My father, my hero, I salute you.
Like I said, I don’t force relationships.
My legs and hands would tremble with fear.
"What happened?" I asked him.
"These straps look so good on your lovely shoulders, bhai!"
She was a strong woman in a man’s world.
We were 4 years into our marriage when this happened.
I’m only another single Techie in Delhi. And I am NOT a rapist.
My parents, my brother killed a big part of me that day.
The love and care that was flowered upon me, I always thought was the edge of being a single child.
Then one one day I got a call from her flatmate.
Who am I? I'm fairer of the two siblings.
My story is no different from any man and woman in this country struggling to get married in their late twenties or early thirties, especially dealing with the age-old arranged...
Men don’t like to hear you rant. Women don’t like to hear you rant either.
The drama started only after the wedding.
I can never have babies.
This is it, this is it.
I woke up to Jatin pulling down my shorts.
I don’t have any guilt either.
It still makes me sick in the stomach.
What if my parents had agreed?
A feeling I will never forget.
Marriages, I was told, are made in heaven.
Finally, I went to a doctor who gave me medicines that made me 'bleed'.
It was one small dialogue in a movie that made me pour out my heart.
I gave around 20 interviews just to get an internship.
Seeing a girl on her knees for him told him he could do whatever with me.
I don’t want you to go to your mother’s house after marriage, unless I give you express permission.
I left that agency also.
A power took over me and I got curious.
A poem that the Supreme court must read.
Your past should be a reference point.
Let me tell you something, I am the femme fatale in our marriage so I don't know who you're feeling bad for.
“What do you do on weekends?”
Love makes you question your own mental state.
Yes, it took me 15 years to say this to you.
It was not gentle. It was forced, it was harsh.
Her staged bruises look so real, I thought.
When the battle on the field was over, ours had just begun.
And this is how it all happened.
I don't know any better way of telling them what I feel.
Like all ex-boyfriends tell themselves, I am consoling myself with “Shit Happens”.
It took a jolt to realize her importance in my life.
I don't blame him, I blame myself.
You are my faithful friend.
I can't think of one person who can replace my wife in this job ever.
I hate that I acted like a typical Indian man and the worst part is — I won't get another chance.
And that’s when my nightmare officially began
As an educated girl, I confronted my husband.
She looked tinier than usual, and then she said it out loud, "Today, at the park, a boy squeezed my chest."
I kept shut until the night everything went out of hand.
But to date, I've not shed a tear.
Waking up everyday and setting out on a new adventure sounds so glorious- on paper.
"Be grateful that I am touching you. Do you think other women would touch a pervert like you?"
"Is your daughter really 56 kgs, she looks a bit fat no?"
During my internship, I saw and experienced a lot of things but what I saw through his eyes, I'll never be able to forget.
I spoke too soon.
She is the heroine of my story.
I don't believe in God, I have no reason to.
Where are you?
I am the most fortunate woman in this world.
I have what you'd call...
He slapped me multiple times.
He took just one day to decide that...
I'm convinced that you'll never leave me alone.
"You can't hit me. Mom just said so!"
It’s one thing to have an opinion and another to be living their lives.
And there I was sent out of our country for sometime.
I really tried hard to be the ideal bahu for you.
I can blame you for everything I don't have today.
I want to be naked...
Everything was going great in our relationship till the day I got that call
What followed next is a bit of an opposition from both families.
I started working at a company a few months ago. I was happy with the work and the work environment as they were what you would call 'chill'.
You won’t believe me.
Overtime, it turned into an abusive relationship.
Other days I am attention-seeking, clingy and needy.
I was always looking for a chance to approach her.
I read a letter the other day.
It's a taboo to even utter the word "anti-depressants".
And the day I meet that person, I will marry her.
We didn't get intimate on our wedding night because he wanted me to remain a virgin for sometime.
Do you want a bai or wife?
I only had a little strength left in me.
I loved him badly.
What I also knew was that I could not do this alone.
Listen. I love being crazy.
I can't seem to stop loving you.
I would look at my feet while talking to people, so that they didn't notice my eyes.
You are NOT the woman I married or made love to.
I could not believe what I found on his profile.
Is this how a man protects his ego?
A month later she realised I live too far.
Yes dear husband, you made me fall for another man.
My mother still does not have the courage to leave this man.
I am tired of you asking me to do "good work".
The person chooses to be unnamed.
Sound familiar to anyone?
When I got married, I wanted only one thing.
One day I broke my silence.
I come from a Rajput family.
So, marrying him was my choice, nobody else's.
"It was a mistake loving you."
While my elder sister was sent to America to pursue her MBA...
This time my brother promised me a new game.
I was young when I first met Ravi.
Medical "care" is the biggest lie.
I assumed he was just being mindful.
Love is not as it seems.
"What's that thing in your hand?"
My tired body with a broken spirit was no more than a sleeping pill for him.
I lost my virginity to him.
On the day of our marriage I got cold feel and I called him to say as much.
Then came my birthday.
I had not slept the previous night due to tension.
His chats got dirtier by the day.
So, I had to keep quiet.
He didn't defend himself or lie any further.
Am I happy? I don't know.
Uncle asked me to come to their place for my summer vacation.
He would watch me secretly as I bathed.
He had a fair complexion, I didn't.
The problem is, quitting accomplishes nothing.
The silence seemed to kill me.
She said, "His face says how good he is." I was shocked.
He said, "I will divorce her, my parents have sold me."
When I asked him why, he says he wants revenge because I put him down.
"Why did I marry you if you can't do all these things?"
All of this was happening in a room full of children.
I do, however, expect a little respect for my point of view.
I was raped when I was 13. They were 5 of them.
I was horrified.
It was always the three of us.
They demanded for gold.
He was kind enough to accept my rejection.
His wife confronted me.
Yes, we are the ones who don’t get paid for our work.
I am suffering from depression now and still hoping for the best.
After that he beat me black and blue.
I always found myself in the wake of conflict.
Fine, you're not getting anything you want.
The frustration of not taking it when I really wanted to made me rage.
The next day I woke up with my legs swollen.
Sometimes, that's all you need.
It was just another weekend with my friends. We planned to drive around in the city as my friend had bought a new car.
If your husband is frustrated, he can hit you hard without feeling any guilt.
I'm a single mother and I still believe that my Prince Charming will show up one day.
He cheated on me for you. He will soon cheat on you for someone else. It doesn’t stop.
His disappointment would kill me every day.
I am not being narrow-minded. Please hear me out.
I know I made a mistake when I told him the truth.
I have one life and I don't see compromise as an option. Is that wrong?
Yes I’m telling myself this everyday. Every single day. After all, it’s my first time. I’m going to get married only once.
I live in a world that's been changed by Oprah as well as Mother Teresa. It is time I start cherishing it.
I confessed and she was shattered, but her questions pissed me off more.
I was scared he'd kill himself.
“Now, if you don't mind, could you please stand up, I would like to take your picture for my family to see," he said.
I am the worst wife in the world and I can't do anything about it.
I still don't know why.
My body went numb when I saw all his activities unfold one by one
What I do in my bedroom is really none of ANYBODY'S business.
"Why do you need to book a hotel? I already have one room."
The laptop was still open in front of me.
I wanted to meet her but she never agreed.
What I found on his phone the next day shocked me.
Within a few months, the boy I loved left me.
This toxic relationship continued for almost a year and a half.
Everything seemed to be fine until that day.
I was asked to choose.
I'm living my life like a queen.
Today, I know better.
He took away the phone, threw it on the floor and slapped me hard.
I loved myself even more with the cancer.
I didn’t let him speak more.
After three years, I got a friend request from an unknown guy on Facebook.
I was ignored and I understood, I was out.
The next day I introduced him to my family.
I hit him on his hand.
One day, we decided to meet.
May the lord give strength to me and my son.
He went for his hometown on a 1 month vacation once.
I went to see a psychiatrist.
I told him that parents aren't home, expecting him to leave from the doorstep.
She realized her couch had started touching her ‘differently’.
One day I was having lunch alone and I saw them coming towards me.
I wasn’t born in that house.
I am not treated like a daughter-in-law.
I felt bad for my mom.
I am not only deprived of family.
The worst day of our life was yet to arrive.
To the world we are living like husband and wife.
I still cannot brush off that image of my father
FAITH: A word that brings positivity, hope and belief along with itself.
After 3 days, I received a Facebook friend request from her and I accepted it.
I know and I appreciate whatever my parents have done for me.
For me love is all about compromises.
I asked her to meet him just once but she did not agree.
Many times I shouted at my husband for absolutely no reason.
She said she was sorry.
My brother tried to hit me.
When I was expecting, I wished for a baby boy.
I was just a doll that was alive but mute all the same.
My husband is the only child.
A month after the engagement, my marriage was fixed.
I couldn’t think for a while, I didn’t know what to do.
I don’t know why she did that.
So I asked her. She refused to answer.
And now I am just a young girl with crushed dreams.
After I reached Bangalore, the nightmare did not end.
I put a full stop with a tight slap to save myself.
He was the kind of man I wanted.
I want to be independent.
I even remember a teacher calling me ‘lifeless’ once.
I am a lawyer by profession.
I’ll never be able to forget that day.
She always seemed lost.
My return gift for that was wrapped in abuse and criticism.
“Sleep with him anyway."
But then his parents asked for a call log.
I saw myself caught in the same dilemma.
It was my first birthday after marriage and I was very excited.
But he couldn’t take it, so one day he came to kill me and take my child away.
I confess, with every ounce of shame.
I left everything for him.
He told me we’ll play a fun game.
I felt like I was coming into my senses.
At the tender of 24, I was forced into marriage.
I was about to get up, but...
Yes, she is my first child.
I am about to join my office in two months from now.
I can't forget him.
I really hope our spouses find their true love too.
I do feel guilty about it.
So I never let anyone come that close.
I slowly lost all my friends.
I felt kind of attracted towards him.
It's their choice to make.
I was shocked to hear all this.
I did what he asked me to do.
I was crying my heart out when he just came to me.
I still get nightmares about that night.
The truth is, I was selfish.
Anyway, I tried hard not to think about that photo.
She became jealous of my beauty.
I’m quick to reach out for love.
It's been more than 2 months since that day.
I suddenly felt a soft corner for her.
This certainly did not happen.
Life was simple three years ago.
My father died when I was 8 years old.
I sense his honesty in his last words.
My dad had worked really hard to give us a healthy upbringing.
I still remember her words.
I promised her that I'll fix everything within a year for her.
I wanted him as my prized possession.
It all started when I desperately wanted to settle down.
Today, this lady, broke me.
I hope I can leave him.
So, I took his call and lied to him.
I learnt this lesson late in life.
When I confronted him, he said I should be glad.
Everything came to a screeching halt!
Today, I am an independent woman.
Finally it was time for both of us to meet.
She asked me to not take up the job or else she'd break up with me.
I dialed my best friend's number but it was switched off.
I dated him for 8 years before I married him.
I love him deeply and realized it soon after I started living with him.
I know he has done something more terrible to you.
He trusted me more than I did myself.
When my daughter was a year old, I decided to divorce him.
Then I met this girl who changed my life.
I am happy that he betrayed me.
It's about the bitter truth of not meeting him again.
You hacked my social media accounts.
I accepted his proposal.
Just listening to his voice gave me butterflies in my stomach.
We were happily married.
We finally took the step of staying separate.
It sounded stupid to him.
We fought for a while.
I might be a word for him, but he is my entire dictionary.