I Was Afraid He'd Ask For 'That' On Our First Night But What Actually Happened Made Me Fall In Love With Him
With every step bringing him closer to me, my heart clenched tighter with fear.
With every step bringing him closer to me, my heart clenched tighter with fear.
By evening I had decided that I won’t relocate to be unemployed again.
I only now realize that it was the ex-boyfriend you were texting all evening,
I feel weird to be his second.
I moaned as I could feel him inside of me.
My father, my hero, I salute you.
Like I said, I don’t force relationships.
My legs and hands would tremble with fear.
"What happened?" I asked him.
"These straps look so good on your lovely shoulders, bhai!"
She was a strong woman in a man’s world.
We were 4 years into our marriage when this happened.
I’m only another single Techie in Delhi. And I am NOT a rapist.
My parents, my brother killed a big part of me that day.
The love and care that was flowered upon me, I always thought was the edge of being a single child.
Then one one day I got a call from her flatmate.
Who am I? I'm fairer of the two siblings.
My story is no different from any man and woman in this country struggling to get married in their late twenties or early thirties, especially dealing with the age-old arranged...
Men don’t like to hear you rant. Women don’t like to hear you rant either.
The drama started only after the wedding.
I can never have babies.
This is it, this is it.
I woke up to Jatin pulling down my shorts.
I don’t have any guilt either.
It still makes me sick in the stomach.
What if my parents had agreed?
A feeling I will never forget.
Marriages, I was told, are made in heaven.
Finally, I went to a doctor who gave me medicines that made me 'bleed'.
It was one small dialogue in a movie that made me pour out my heart.
I gave around 20 interviews just to get an internship.
Seeing a girl on her knees for him told him he could do whatever with me.
I don’t want you to go to your mother’s house after marriage, unless I give you express permission.
I left that agency also.
A power took over me and I got curious.
A poem that the Supreme court must read.
Your past should be a reference point.
Let me tell you something, I am the femme fatale in our marriage so I don't know who you're feeling bad for.
“What do you do on weekends?”
Love makes you question your own mental state.
Yes, it took me 15 years to say this to you.
It was not gentle. It was forced, it was harsh.
Her staged bruises look so real, I thought.
When the battle on the field was over, ours had just begun.
And this is how it all happened.
I don't know any better way of telling them what I feel.
Like all ex-boyfriends tell themselves, I am consoling myself with “Shit Happens”.
It took a jolt to realize her importance in my life.
I don't blame him, I blame myself.
You are my faithful friend.
I can't think of one person who can replace my wife in this job ever.
I hate that I acted like a typical Indian man and the worst part is — I won't get another chance.
And that’s when my nightmare officially began
As an educated girl, I confronted my husband.
She looked tinier than usual, and then she said it out loud, "Today, at the park, a boy squeezed my chest."
I kept shut until the night everything went out of hand.
But to date, I've not shed a tear.
Waking up everyday and setting out on a new adventure sounds so glorious- on paper.
"Be grateful that I am touching you. Do you think other women would touch a pervert like you?"
"Is your daughter really 56 kgs, she looks a bit fat no?"
During my internship, I saw and experienced a lot of things but what I saw through his eyes, I'll never be able to forget.
I spoke too soon.
She is the heroine of my story.
I don't believe in God, I have no reason to.
Where are you?
I am the most fortunate woman in this world.
I have what you'd call...
He took just one day to decide that...
I'm convinced that you'll never leave me alone.
"You can't hit me. Mom just said so!"
It’s one thing to have an opinion and another to be living their lives.
And there I was sent out of our country for sometime.
I really tried hard to be the ideal bahu for you.
I can blame you for everything I don't have today.
I want to be naked...
Everything was going great in our relationship till the day I got that call
What followed next is a bit of an opposition from both families.
I started working at a company a few months ago. I was happy with the work and the work environment as they were what you would call 'chill'.
You won’t believe me.
Overtime, it turned into an abusive relationship.
I was always looking for a chance to approach her.
Other days I am attention-seeking, clingy and needy.
I read a letter the other day.
It's a taboo to even utter the word "anti-depressants".
We didn't get intimate on our wedding night because he wanted me to remain a virgin for sometime.
Do you want a bai or wife?
Listen. I love being crazy.
I loved him badly.
What I also knew was that I could not do this alone.
I can't seem to stop loving you.
I would look at my feet while talking to people, so that they didn't notice my eyes.
You are NOT the woman I married or made love to.
The person chooses to be unnamed.
I am tired of you asking me to do "good work".
Sound familiar to anyone?
One day I broke my silence.
So, marrying him was my choice, nobody else's.
While my elder sister was sent to America to pursue her MBA...
Medical "care" is the biggest lie.
"What's that thing in your hand?"
I lost my virginity to him.
On the day of our marriage I got cold feel and I called him to say as much.
I had not slept the previous night due to tension.
His chats got dirtier by the day.
So, I had to keep quiet.
He didn't defend himself or lie any further.
Am I happy? I don't know.
Uncle asked me to come to their place for my summer vacation.
He would watch me secretly as I bathed.
He had a fair complexion, I didn't.
The silence seemed to kill me.
She said, "His face says how good he is." I was shocked.
He said, "I will divorce her, my parents have sold me."
When I asked him why, he says he wants revenge because I put him down.
"Why did I marry you if you can't do all these things?"
All of this was happening in a room full of children.
I was raped when I was 13. They were 5 of them.
I was horrified.
It was always the three of us.
They demanded for gold.
He was kind enough to accept my rejection.
His wife confronted me.
Yes, we are the ones who don’t get paid for our work.
I am suffering from depression now and still hoping for the best.
After that he beat me black and blue.
I always found myself in the wake of conflict.
Fine, you're not getting anything you want.
The frustration of not taking it when I really wanted to made me rage.
The next day I woke up with my legs swollen.
Sometimes, that's all you need.
It was just another weekend with my friends. We planned to drive around in the city as my friend had bought a new car.
If your husband is frustrated, he can hit you hard without feeling any guilt.
I'm a single mother and I still believe that my Prince Charming will show up one day.
He cheated on me for you. He will soon cheat on you for someone else. It doesn’t stop.
His disappointment would kill me every day.
I am not being narrow-minded. Please hear me out.
I have one life and I don't see compromise as an option. Is that wrong?
Yes I’m telling myself this everyday. Every single day. After all, it’s my first time. I’m going to get married only once.
I live in a world that's been changed by Oprah as well as Mother Teresa. It is time I start cherishing it.
I confessed and she was shattered, but her questions pissed me off more.
I was scared he'd kill himself.
“Now, if you don't mind, could you please stand up, I would like to take your picture for my family to see," he said.
I am the worst wife in the world and I can't do anything about it.
I still don't know why.
My body went numb when I saw all his activities unfold one by one
What I do in my bedroom is really none of ANYBODY'S business.
"Why do you need to book a hotel? I already have one room."
I could not believe what I found on his profile.
A month later she realised I live too far.
My mother still does not have the courage to leave this man.
The worst day of our life was yet to arrive.
I wanted to meet her but she never agreed.
What I found on his phone the next day shocked me.
Everything seemed to be fine until that day.
I was asked to choose.