To My Dear Psycho Ex Boyfriend: Thank You For Everything

Anonymous Anonymous in Stolen Diaries on 7 April, 2017

My Dear Ex-boyfriend,

In the end,
Your greatest pain becomes your greatest strength.

The pain you gave me is now the strength of my life, and I am wearing it with pride.

I held on to you, even when it hurt me, because you were the only thing that made me happy.
Some people don’t realize what they have until it’s gone,
But that does not always mean they are supposed to get it back. Right?

Advertisement

When you did all those things to me, it split my heart in two.

One part filled with your memories, the other gone with you.

And now, I’m living with half a heart that no one can fix. No one.
I hope one day you hear my name
And your hands shake and your heart skips a beat and you remember all I did and how much I loved you,
And how you’ll never find someone like me again.

I’m learning to be okay without you and I can’t wait for the day when I’ll hear your name too and feel nothing.
Advertisement

I don’t regret my past, I just regret the time I’ve wasted with the wrong guy.
And baby, that’s you!

This was what I felt after you hurt me.
But now, after all this time, this is what I feel…
It’s not over between us. It can’t ever be.

There are things that will always connect us, things that have been left unsaid.

I’m sure you still think of me.
If nothing else, you probably remember the first time we met, and the last time too.
Fabulous, wasn’t it?

Even after everything you did to me, I don’t have anything terrible to say to you.
But, I do have much to thank you for.

Advertisement
So, thank you for introducing me to self-preservation.

It’s not that I won’t trust anyone any more, it’s just that I would do it more deliberately now.

Thank you for letting me discover myself again and for bringing me so close to my family.

You made me introspect and made me realize that I deserve someone MUCH better,
And that someone better is me.
Good luck, then, to your present/future girlfriend/wife.
I’m sure she’s a nice person too, although she will need a lot of patience to be with you.

Don’t worry about me. I’ll amble along just fine.
It’s you who needs to live with the guilt.

Because I only lost the person whom I loved, but you, my dear, lost the girl who loved you the most.