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She Sipped On Her Coffee Quietly And Decided To Fall In Love With Herself All Over Again

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That morning she woke up with certainty. She stood tall and felt happy. She stood in front of the mirror and realized that it had been a long time since she took care of her appearance and her physical self. She knew she had become leaner but she also felt weak.

But somehow today she also felt beautiful. She had neglected her health immensely during the last few days. Her only wealth – her self-esteem too had gone for a toss.
She sipped on her regular cup of coffee and revisited the experiences that she had experienced in the last few months – the good, bad, sweet, sour, mad and sad ones.

She knew she had enjoyed the success, the respect, the warmth, the love and the gratitude. These were the best parts of her life. But suddenly everything went blank. She felt herself sinking into the pain of the loss, the grief and the sadness. The last few weeks had been terrible. They had taken away all her smiles and her charm.

She knew she had once been an all jolly and all smiles girl. But now tears and despair seemed to be her only companions. She had lost her confidence, her madness, the child in her, her dignity and obviously her life too.

She was no longer the girl who laughed at the silliest of jokes. She was no longer the kid who roamed around the locality like a fearless kid. She felt all grown up now and the journey had not been all too good. Yet, she couldn’t cry or crib. She found it difficult to answer or talk to people. She felt like a cheat.

She knew she hadn’t done anything wrong yet she felt absurdly guilty and the guilt often overwhelmed her.

She was feeling so restless today. Her mind too was restless. She was like a spirit that was living in a semi-dead soul. Nothing seemed to cheer her up. It was raining and gloomy all around.

Then she just decided that today was the most perfect and sunny day for her. She got up, greeted her special ones, and ate what she felt like without caring about her weight.

Nothing had changed. Everything was the same. Yet she felt great. It was as if some good spirit had taken over her.

She looked out of the window. She could get a glimpse of the birds and the sunshine. She was still in her pyjamas and her hair was messy. But she felt so graceful and bright today. She wanted to challenge the sun itself today and she knew that the sun too would be envious of her charm.

This day was no different. It was the same morning, the same place and it was the same coffee but her inner- self was different. She sensed the love that was radiating from her heart and her mind.

Today, she somehow realized that she would live only once. She knew that she owned only this one moment in her life. She knew she had the will to live. She knew that she could face life the way it was served to her. She understood that happiness did not come easily to anyone. She too had to wait at God’s table till he prepared the menu for her. She also knew that she would not always be served with the chef’s special dish.

She realized that often she would have to make do with the worst dish on His menu card. She knew she had to pay for the dish and she also knew that sometimes she ended up making the wrong choices for herself. It was difficult to make the right choice all the time. But she knew she had become a better critic only after making the wrong choices in her life.

Today she was her own critic and her own chef. She had to plan her own meal and create her own menu. She had to plan her own starters and choose what she wanted to eat for the main course. The dessert was about to be laid. She had a choice again. She had to choose what was best for her. She could choose between sweet and cold. And she chose both.

She realized that life was not a bed of roses for anyone.

She knew she would have to remove the thorns from her life herself and allow the fragrance to enhance the quality of her life.

She learnt not to repent for her mistakes. She learnt to laugh at them. She learnt to smile at her achievements. Yet she had a long way to go. She had embarked on a journey of endless possibilities.
She knew it would be a journey filled with happiness and sadness but she would ensure that there were more smiles and fewer tears this time around.

The past few days had made her physically and mentally weak. It had been tough but now she realized that she had allowed the bad to overwhelm the good. But today she was determined – she was confident and pretty – in her mind. She knew she was going to have her fair share of sweetness very soon. She wanted to make the journey worthwhile.

She looked down at her coffee. She had finished it. She suddenly realized that she had not added any sugar to it. But somehow it was the best and the sweetest cup of coffee that she had ever had.

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