Dear Mom, Please Kill Me

Deepika Gunasekaran Deepika Gunasekaran in Stolen Diaries on 29 January, 2017

Dear Mom,

Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want Dad to hate me.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want uncles to touch me. 

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Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to be denied of school.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want my childhood to be ripped to shreds.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want people to mock at my dark skin.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to spread my ‘impurity’.

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Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to hear Romeos commenting on my curves.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.

Coz, I don’t want to shame you by falling in love.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.

Coz, I don’t want to be punished for my dress.
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Dear Mom,
Please kill me.

Coz, I don’t want to be taught a lesson for walking alone in the night.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want acid on my face for telling No.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to be burnt alive for choosing a guy over Family Name.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to be a burden.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to be my husband’s punching bag.

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Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to be killed for my in-law’s greed.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.

Coz, I don’t want to be an outcast for walking out of my abusive marriage.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to be dressed in white for the rest of my life.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to be humiliated for not bearing a child.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to choose family over me Every Single Time.

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Dear Mom,
Please kill me.

Coz, I don’t want to sleep with my eyes open all my life.

Dear Mom,
Please kill me.
Coz, I don’t want to be a Girl.
Coz, I don’t want to step into this prejudiced world.
Coz, if this is life,
I choose death.

Dear Mom,
Please. Kill. Me.
Author's Note:

This Poem is about the thoughts of a female foetus terrified to step into this world. She begs her mom at different stages of her development to kill her in the womb.