I was single, not by choice but the fact that I had studied in a boys school and also I had done engineering at a co-ed college, overruled my fate. I didn't have the guts to initiate talks with any girl. Fast forward, I got a job and I was a technical trainer in an institute. There she came in my life, she was my student there. She is such a simple and sweet girl. No fashionable clothes, yet a heart full of gold.
Our conversations started over WhatsApp and this was the first time in my life I was feeling butterflies in my stomach. I started to feel what love is and how it can transform you into a better person. I was so shy that, I hardly initiated conversation with her. She initiated the conversation over WhatsApp and then we become good friends. Everything was going fine over WhatsApp, then one day I proposed to her. She took some time and after a lot of thinking, she accepted my proposal. I had said I love you many times over WhatsApp but not verbally.
She told me to propose her in person. Deep inside I was getting nervous, thinking how to propose her. But she supported me, by her grace I proposed to her. I must say, that was the most awkward proposal on this planet.
The proposal might be awkward, but she was blushing. Her smile was adorable and her smile seemed like the most beautiful thing in the world. She is the best thing to have happened to me. She is the perfect example of beauty with brains and a very mature girl. Due to her only, I have rediscovered myself. She has brought about so many positive changes in me, she has made me a responsible man. After the completion of her course, we parted away due to the difference in castes. We were in a casual relationship thereafter, since she started suppressing her feelings. I spotted her after a period of one and a half years. I saw her face, and she did not seem like the girl that I had met before, she looked unhappy.
She didn't make any eye contact with me. I wanted to read her eyes, I want to feel her pain.
She avoided me, she didn't want to fall in love with me. I respect her even more now since she is going to get married as per her family’s wish. Because of her, I realized how difficult is to be a girl. It is easy to show off masculinity, but it's hard to hide the pain. She is still a source of inspiration for me and will always be.