I don't know from where to start. Okay..I'm a girl whose parents have expired. I stayed with my friends for 2 years after that and then I met a guy online. We met and became friends and slowly we moved into one house. At that time, I felt that he was quite short tempered. I tried to leave once but he made up again with me and I agreed because till now I also felt the need for a family.
I needed someone of my own so I ignored his short temperaments and married him.
His parents were against our marriage but after some time, they agreed. After marriage, I slowly realised that my husband was not interested in sex. I tried to ask him many times but he just ignored me or said that he was not interested. And because of his short-tempered nature, we also had lots of fights. He abused me, said bad things and one day he even slapped me. On that day something just changed inside me. Slowly I started getting into depression. Then I met someone who became a friend. After meeting him I realized that I'm also beautiful. That friend made me feel special, he encouraged me to do something with my life. And then I decided to meet him. And the day I met him, I realized that it was love. He gave me all that love in one day which my husband never gave me in the three years of marriage.
And no, I didn't feel guilty about it because my husband had pushed me to a point where I had broken down already.
After that, my husband again fought with me and this time I was not ready to take any shit from him. I told him that I want a divorce but the second day, he came and convinced me to give our relationship a second chance. I didn't know what to say, I was so confused and depressed.
Day before yesterday, he said that he wants to have sex with me and he started trying to do it. But I don't know anymore, I didn't like it.
I didn't feel like doing it. I don't know why? But at this time I'm really confused and messed up. And it's not easy now also to leave that another man. I've only met him once but he gave me that love which my husband never gave me. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. I want to give him a second chance but now I've stopped feeling for him physically. I also know that he's not capable of it as in these three years, he only got intimate with me 34 times and that also was like he was only doing a formality.