I am a 20-year-old girl. I am in love with a 33-year-old man who is married and has a daughter. He resides in a different city but comes to my city on weekends and that is the time we get to meet. We go for walks or hang out. I met him for the first time in 2016 November through one of my friends. He is quite close to my friend. I never thought that we would fall in love. After meeting him, I was quite impressed but never initiated contact. In January 2017, we started chatting on Facebook and within a week, we met in my city when he came on a weekend. We went for a drive and until that time, I had never even thought of falling in love with him. We met for three consecutive days, during that time.
On the third day itself, he confessed that he had fallen for me. But I didn’t reciprocate.
The next day, he went back. But then I realized I felt for him too. And we started meeting every month from then onwards. I came to know many more things about him, and we got to know each other well. I found out that he had an extramarital affair before also. But I always considered us the best, so initially, I felt bad but ignored it. In fact, he had too many relationships in the past. But still, I chose him. Till date, we meet monthly and talk on a daily basis.
Our love has changed a lot.
We are just too close to each other physically and mentally as well. We are emotionally attached. We talk whenever his wife is not around. I don’t want to hurt anybody. His wife is also known to me and we are in touch. Therefore I don’t want anything bad to happen to her. But I am really in love with him. I keep thinking about him. I feel jealous of his wife sometimes, but he is her life, at the same time. We have even talked about marrying each other if possible some day. For me, him saying this is the biggest thing. It is not easy to say this when you have a family. We also want a human sign of our love in the form of a baby. Even he gets jealous when I talk about my marriage or my boyfriend. Yes, I have a boyfriend. He loves me a lot. But I don’t know what my heart wants.
My boyfriend has a different place in my life. I love him and he loves me a lot too.
With the married man, even though I know nothing can happen, I want him to be a part of my life forever. I want to spend moments with him. I know that he is taken but still, I wish to be with him. I believe that love has no age. I cannot resist my mind and heart. People say that I am doing the wrong thing. Yes maybe I am, but what if it was in my destiny? I don’t want any judgement in my life.
I am going with the flow and with god’s plan for me.