We met each other 8 years back. Something clicked between us and we became very fond of each other. In no time we shared our entire life with each other. We were connected over phone as we lived in different cities. We became very good friends, perhaps more than friends.

I was in a relationship and he was married. We indulged once. It was purely physical, nothing emotional when we thought of meeting but after meeting his attachment towards me knew no bounds. He was always around trying to be connected, a friend, philosopher, guide, mentor for all these years.

One night I told him I have fallen for you. He was very clear. Tried to pacify me as he was already married with a child. I also came back to my sense and moved on in life.

My relationship had ended on a bad note as my boyfriend betrayed me. This special friend was still there to take care of me and gave me the strength that was needed by me to come back to life as it was a 4 years relation of mine.

We never met after that day but we were​ always connected. I liked him a lot for the kind of person he is. We always felt comfortable with each other. We have shared darkest corners of our life with each others without any fear of being judged. He is in mid 40's and me in early 30's. Despite the age difference we always felt that comfort level with each other.

I got married 2 years back but am stuck in a bad marriage. He is married for 12 years but not happy as it has been life less for many years now. No love no intimacy. He respects his wife as she is the mother of his 2 kids. He had been dragging his relation and had accepted it as a way of life.

However, there is no good husband wife relationship between them. Since we've been speaking our heart out to each other since beginning I know what he says isn't false. With the two of us sailing in the same boat we came close. We didn't realize when our calls and chats became our reason to live life again. We keep looking forward for us to get connected every morning. At present, we have reached that stage of our life where we met and then again and again and again want to meet. 

Today we feel we want to start a new life with each other. I know I am divorcing my husband soon as there is no meaning to my marriage since the day we got married. I was dragging it for my parents but I have decided I don't wish to continue in a lifeless marriage.

However, every time we talk now, we are fighting a battle between HEART & BRAIN. Would it be right for him to divorce his wife and we start our life or shall we compromise and move on with our individual lives so that his kids don't suffer? He loves his kids a lot and I completely understand his love towards them.

But, would it be wrong if we think of our life and our happiness?

Would we be doing injustice with the kids? If yes should we spend out entire life with the feeling we didn't do it when life gave us a chance? We have been carrying our own individual baggage for many years. I don't wish to continue carrying it any further. We have lost enough in life in our own ways so now would it be wrong if we look forward for our happiness? Love is all we wanted in life and now would it be wrong to fight for love?

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