I am Krit. My pronouns are he/they. I was never comfortable being identified as a girl from the very beginning. I felt like this even before I knew what being a boy entails or how it was different from being a girl. I was so sure of being a boy myself that I used to think that I might grow up to be a boy someday. I used to pray for the same, but things did not turn out that way.

Nonetheless, I always believed in myself. It was not a surprise to me that I liked girls. I had an unforgettable crush on my best friend when I was in 2nd standard. I never felt it was wrong.

In 5th standard, I started exploring the Internet. I used to wake up in the middle of the night to read more about the LGBTQ+ community. I used to research and comprehend as much as I could to educate myself more along these lines. The term ‘lesbian’ never felt comfortable. I was sure about my sexual orientation but still struggled with my identity for a long time.

It felt great to know that I am not alone. But I still wondered if I will ever come across someone like me. The first time I came out was in 6th standard. It was on my school picnic and to a friend I was sitting next to on the school bus. Unexpectedly, she knew about homosexuality, and even surprisingly, was even supportive. I even told her who my crush was. We developed a strong bond after that incident.

However, I have faced bullying and a lot of hate. People have often asked me inappropriate questions and teased me for the same. Honestly, it never mattered to me. I have even lost some friends in the process but the ones who remained- thank you for being there no matter what.

I have also made peace with my identity- I am what I am. I wish labels were not a thing. I feel I don’t need to put myself in a box. The fact is, I am Queer, always have been, always will be, and I could not be happier.

I am proud of myself and comfortable with who I am.

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