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Becoming A Parent Is Filled With Horrors, Until The Good News Comes

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Becoming a mom is one beautiful experience that most women want to go through at some point in their life. But not everyone knows that it’s not easy for everyone, especially for a girl like me.

Coming from a conservative family, I never expected to pass this big hurdle going down the road. I got married when I was 22; that’s when a new phase of my life started. Days changed to weeks, weeks to months and months to years, 3 years passed by and then I got the shock of my life.

I ended up in a doctor’s clinic and heard the most painful words of my life. That moment my heart felt heavy, my tears blurred my vision and I died a million times inside with mixed emotions. After a moment, the only thing I remember is the doctor calling a nurse to bring me back to my senses.  

I walked out without letting them complete their conversation and sat idle in my car for a few minutes. Tears rolled down my cheeks and I burst out crying.

My body had this inherited gene which could pass on to my kids and make them physically challenged. 

Who would have ever imagined I suffer from such a condition when all of us seemed totally healthy, life has a way to surprise us. The only thing running through my mind was: I should never become a mother if my kids have to suffer. All I felt in that moment was fear, confusion and heartache.  

I had to gather so much courage to tell this to my husband and family. But they are the ones who gave me strength and brought me back to life. We started searching for ways to cure this. Few days passed by and then we saw a ray of light. We found a way to cure this on the Internet. After several long sessions with counsellors and doctors, we decided to test this procedure that could ensure that my child was healthy.

We didn’t realize this procedure will challenge me both physically and mentally. Few days into the procedure, I started becoming weak mentally. I stopped talking to people. Every day was like giving a life exam and waiting for the results. It was an emotional, physical and financial roller coaster ride. My husband and I started fighting about things that were never an issue between us. 

We were not in the situation to understand that it was the stress and hormones driving us crazy until that one day. That day I got a call from the doctor that changed my life forever; I was pregnant.

I was so thankful to the doctors who helped me, to the experts who came up with the procedure, my family that supported me and finally the external forces that made all this possible. 

It is such a beautiful thing to nurture another life inside you. Going through this journey, I have seen many mothers who love the ride and many others who hate it. But in the end, there is a life inside you, get amazed by it. It’s a gift given to you and not everyone can get it easily. 

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