When the whole world is going through this pandemic I am fighting with other emotions. I don't know what is happening with me. I am happy but somewhere I am scared of the future.
I am that girl who never wanted to sit at home and live a life doing nothing in terms of career. But I don't understand why are we under so much pressure of society for getting married, having a child.
This is going to make you settled but are we really settled after marriage? I am not sure. After marriage it felt like things are stopping me to do something worthy. What matters most after marriage is thinking about your family.
I have been jobless for almost one and half years after my marriage and somehow I managed to get a job in an MNC with the help of my husband but then this Covid situation had happened and work from home started. I was working for 12-14 hrs but couldn't take that pressure and lost my job recently.
Then I came to know that I am pregnant. I won't be able to get a job with my current situation. And since I had a miscarriage few months back, I want this baby. Everyday I pray to God to keep my baby healthy. But I don't know if I will be able to do anything after delivery. I understand that I will have to take a break.
I am already 31 I don't know where my life is going. Everyday it's like life is getting over. I wanted to do so many things but now its like those will be incomplete and that makes me sad.