Why is it paining so much? Love is painful - that is right. Especially one-sided love. Some people claim that there is no such thing as one-sided love. The person I think I am in love with, says so too. He says that what I feel for him is not love.
But I feel something that I have never felt before. I like all my friends but I regard him in a different space from others.
When I proposed to him, he said that he doesn't want to lose a friend like me. So yes, he needs me. I am in love with him and I am trying all possible ways to forget him. Whenever I think that I am doing okay, I get hurt yet again because I realize that I still must get over him. I hate feeling like this. His behavior is good towards me but he can also get very mean sometimes. It really hurts me so much that I cannot explain it in words.
I am being strong but still, it hurts like hell. I am always thinking about him but he doesn't have even have a minute to think about me in his life.
Oh God! I don't want this pain. One thing that I am sure of is that he doesn't deserve me, there is someone out there waiting for me who deserves my love. I will marry the one who deserves me and give all my love to him. This is a universal truth but my heart still expects him and so I constantly end up getting hurt.
I am perpetually torn between, ‘if it is meant for you, you will get it’ and ‘if you want something, go and get it’.
I really need him. I just want to feel his love. My love, I won't wait anymore for you because I am tired of getting hurt. Enough is enough. I am done. Even though I always keep giving myself a reality check, the pain refuses to cease.