Break-ups are meant for introspection and realisation so that you fall in love all over again with your partner and work towards fixing your relationship.
Like the plethora of other women in their mid-20s, I am driven and career-oriented and single.
I didn’t plan it this way, in fact, I thought I had found ‘the one’ and was being informed about him, and so did my family and friends. Unlike women my age, who plan/dream of their wedding; I, on the other hand, was an opposite
For me, companionship has been the key to happiness in a personal zone of life; regardless of marriage.
I am currently sitting in my backyard with a soundtrack blaring in an attempt to wake me up of that immense pain within, to get me to write this article.
Every relationship has its ups and downs. Struggling to strike a balance is perhaps one of its kinds. Such a relationship makes you dream of a future. Both people involved invest efforts and time to think of a future together.
Abhi came into my life at a time when I wasn’t searching nor was I yearning to be with someone. Yeah! Just as they, the most beautiful things in life happen unexpectedly. I couldn’t have been happier.
I remember how we started off being with each other at 1% and as days passed by, fell head over heels in love. In other words, maybe I couldn’t do without him.
The fact is I still can’t.
We no longer build, we no longer make. And if it’s not working, we don’t look for the source and try to make it work, we choose the easiest option- to throw it away. Maybe that’s why we broke-up. We ran out of patience. I admit that we went wrong there. A little more patience and perhaps, we would have been better.
Most people are confused, misleading the meaning of relationship and love. When a relationship is over, we think love is over. But honestly, deep within the mind and heart, love between them won't get over. They are stored in your unconscious mind.
You will often find people keep their babies name linking to their true love. Very few people experience a combination of love and companionship together in life.
Moving on is no good a remedy when you know how much you loved a person. Hope never dies. Talking of myself, I have just wanted to hide, switch off my phone, shut off from the world and pretend it's not happening, but I realise that for so many reasons as I feel utterly lost and empty without him. I suffered a great deal of depression. Today, I can't look to the passenger seat while driving the car without the deepest ache spreading across my chest. Yes, he wasn’t a great driver, and I loved having him sit next to me.
I knew I was lucky but it is also true that you never know what you’ve got until it’s gone. He was my north, my south, my east, and my west. The reason I wanted to wake up every morning and be a better person.
Till date, I don’t know how to exist by myself, living in all of the memories. He is literally in my thoughts every waking moment and in my dreams every minute I rest. It was the kind of love that envelops you completely and makes you feel like the only person in the world.
So make me this promise. Go out. Go to your partner or your lover. Tell them that you love them. Embrace them. Hold them a little longer.
Squeeze them a little tighter. Whisper sweet nothings and try to forget, just for a moment, those small irrelevant worries and wrongs of the past. You're only here in this world for the shortest time, and you never know when it might all disappear.
And so, although I fear I have missed out so much that I wanted to say... I leave with this.
Did you say it?
"I love you, I don't ever want to live without you, and you changed my life."
Did you say it?
Make a plan.
Set a goal. Work towards it.
But now and then, turn around.
Drink it in. Cause, this is it.
It might all be gone tomorrow.