I Still Remember How I Blushed When He Told Me He Loved Me

Anonymous Anonymous in Life Is Tough on 25 July, 2017

Just like everyone else here, I too have a story.

I’m 22 years old and I’m currently finishing my post-graduation.

In the past nine years, I have experienced a lot of things in my life: the joy of being loved, the pain of losing a lover and the agony of living with my parents who don’t support or understand me.

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It all began when I was in the 9th grade.

It was the first time that my heart did something other than pump out blood; it beat for someone else.

And what was even better, I found out that he felt the same way about me. Of course, I wasn’t going to say anything to him. It was only after a few months, that he came and told me that he loved me.

I still remember how I blushed. I had no answer for him at that time, but after a while, I did say yes. I was shy, it took me a while to open up to him. But for us, not talking seemed to work, and we would stare into each other’s eyes for hours in our tuition class.

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Finally, we were done with our H.S.L.C. exams and he went on to take up science and I followed Arts. This division of streams started creating a distance between us, but we spoke on the phone endlessly.

While this seemed enough initially, things slowly began to change.

The more I tried to stay in touch with him, the farther away he went from me. There were times when he didn’t reply to any messages or phone calls.

At first, I was worried, but soon then, I was enraged.

How could he do this to me?

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Why was he doing this to me?

Did I do something wrong?

Or say something wrong?

All these questions began rising in my mind, but I didn’t have answers to them.

There were days when he would come rushing to me, with apologies, and I would forgive him instantly. But all his promises of never doing it again, were just empty promises. 

And I’m always just left with an empty question, Why?