“Even I didn’t know that I was going to like you in that way!”
Yeah! I sent you a friend request on Facebook just to be a casual friend, and it became something different altogether.
'Your friend request is accepted by Aryan Singh.' Such a mundane notification. But we spoke. You asked me how I was, I asked you how you were. Everything was good in life. I thought I had sent you a friend request but turns out, you were the one who had.
The beginning and end of how we went through this has no relation at all. First, it was just the habit of responding to each other that made us give each other importance. Facebook chats soon became WhatsApp chats, thanks to you. In the beginning, I was even rude and arrogant to you, just to show that I didn't care that much. But I did.
You used to tell me everything- where you went, what you did, how much you ate. I never asked for any of these details but you made me important enough to tell me these things.
You kept telling me to be myself and not pretend. You could see through me and you would ask me to be more polite, making me understand that it was okay.
You changed me slowly, and slowly, I started liking you more. Our conversations became daily rituals. I began waiting for your messages. I was still behaving the same way, but you didn't leave me.
One day we decided to meet. I know you wanted to go on a long drive, but we met at a restaurant. We could have spoken forever, but I had to leave. I was leaving the city the next day to go study elsewhere.
And then one day, I got a request for a video call from you. Then we were at it again, with the late night calls and conversations. You booked a soft corner in my heart, Aryan, yes you did.
Love spiked like electricity inside me every time I saw your name on the screen. My heart would beat faster, my stomach would go into knots, my smile would shine like LED lights.
It was finally time for me to tell you how I really felt about you. I wanted us to go to the next level.
I don’t know how things change- slowly or quickly? Or do we accept it slowly or quickly? Whether it’s change, situation, friendship, love, or life- what's the deal with us?
Now I am a different person in front of you, but as usual, change is the only constant in this world. You are not the same person I knew, my messages go without a response, there are no details about your life, I don't know anything, but it was not all of sudden.
Slowly- slowly, I know I am late for change. Now you are not here to see me like this and I wanted you to know me. I wanted everything to be as it was, with the same you. I am only left with the perfect song “Na aaye ho, na aaoge, na phone pe bulaoge”.
You know what I feel everyone waits to some limit, and you also did.
Whatever changed you, you will always remain at the same place, a good friend, an ideal person for me, and I liked you exactly that way. The casual friendship ended sadly, which I did not expect.
My story was nothing different from others. We all face the same situation some day or the other. The most important thing is that I need to understand it and flow with time.