Days pass by but nights are no less than a nightmare. My thoughts are a wagon of pain for me. But at the end, I always hope and look for the good in life. My story is a one-sided love story; you may even call it two-sided.
After completing the tenth boards, all of us were really excited to go to the senior secondary school. It was 7th of July, 2009. I remember the date clearly. It was the first day of my secondary school, and I was equally nervous and excited. I entered my new class and then suddenly, my eye noticed him. He was as perfect as a Greek God. I couldn’t stop myself from staring at him. He was the only reason why I loved going to school.
We never talked till our eleventh standard; I was just a fellow classmate to him.
In class 12, our seats were changed. I was made to sit in front of him. I was quite happy with the arrangement. That was the best day of my life. I already started dreaming about him. Sitting in front of him was the first step towards our friendship. We teased and made fun of each other. Basically, we both hated each other. And it is rightly said, “Hatred is the first step to love.”
Unknowingly, we both developed feelings for each other but then, I waited for my 12th to get over first.
After the board's exams were over, he confessed his feelings to me and I did the same. I don’t know whether we were in a relationship or not because after a day or two, he said that we weren’t compatible. Something inside me was murdered thousands time, but I just said that it was okay. If it wasn’t working for him, then we should end it up. I couldn’t really hate him for breaking my heart because my love for him was true.
It has almost been 5 years since this episode took place. Every single day, he still pops into my mind and I keep thinking about him for hours. I still compare all the other guys with him but no one is anywhere near to him. I know I may sound like a kid to many of you but love is such a beautiful feeling in which if you become a kid, it doesn’t really matter. It’s just you and the person you love.