I Broke Your Heart But I Never Stopped Loving You

Anonymous Anonymous in Life Is Tough on 27 July, 2017

From where should I start? The day when we first met in college or the day that I broke his heart…

We were introduced through one of our common friends. From the day that we met, he became my best buddy.

He was always there to support me, to make me smile, to lend a shoulder when I was crying. I never realized when he developed feelings for me but I knew one thing - I could never imagine my life without him.

He was in the final year of college while I was in my first year. During college, he was the only friend I had. Those movie outings and late night chats; every moment that I’d spent with him was amazing. I always knew that I liked him but I never thought that I’d miss him so much after he left. I was so lonely without him. After he completed college, we lost touch. He tried calling me but I was never available because of some or the other family issue.

He was completely unaware of how much I missed him. I too never expressed it to him.

And then, a few years later, we met again. It was during my first job and I literally hugged him in the office itself! Seeing him there was the most beautiful surprise for me. We started spending time together again. He always brought a smile to my face. The night when we actually expressed our feelings to each other was the best moment. Love was in the air.

We then had our first official date. He got me roses and I was completely flattered. Everything was going smoothly. Two years passed by and though our relationship went through some ups and downs, I still loved him like crazy. The best part about our relationship was ‘1.43’.

He would call or message me at 1.43 am and 1.43 pm (143 stands for I Love You) to express his love and he did it every time, without fail.

That made me crazier for him.

After two years, I realized it was high time that I told my parents about him. But I don't know why I just couldn’t gather the courage to tell them that I loved someone. During that time, I was also under extreme pressure to get married. Everything was messed up!

Ultimately I had to break his heart for the sake of my parents. I said yes to someone whom I am married to now. But I could never forget him.

I still miss him… every single moment. I wish I could tell him how much I love him...I just wish...