I am a 22 year guy and I think I am different. The reason I am saying this is because I never had feelings for anyone except for my family.

I have some friends, they love me, I guess I like them too, they are pretty good. They know that I am a sociopath. I am not ashamed of it, I can't change myself, this is me. I don't give a fuck about anyone.

So my story starts last year, I was in the last year of my graduation, I had been in many relationships before, but none of them were serious, and I never wanted a serious relationship, still don't.

I am not saying that I am not attracted to girls, after all I am human. I am saying that I never had any emotional attachment with anyone. I was pretty popular in the college as I was a dancer.

A girl in first year had a crush on me. For me, it was very clear, if you want to be in a relationship with me, you need to know that I will never be in a serious relationship and will never commit, that's how relationships works for me.

So that girl started talking to me and we became friend. She wanted me to propose to her but except for my mom and dad, I never said 'I love you' to anyone, and that didn't change. Eventually after a few months, she proposed to me.

I was like "don't ruin your life girl, I am not worth your time." I said no, because she was in love with me, and I didn't want to ruin anyone's life. She didn't stop, she kept coming hoping that I will accept her, I told her that I can't love her, I don't have any emotions, she was shocked.

I told her about my condition and gave her a choice to leave me or be in a relationship with me without any expectations, I told her that if she wants to be in a relationship with me, she needs to know that I can't love her.

She accepted it, she actually thought that her love will change me. So we started our relationship, actually it was more like friends with benefits. It went on for seven months.

My friends told me that she is deeply in love with me, everyone knew that she was in love with and I was not, they thought that I was playing her and eventually I was the bad guy in their eyes.

Regardless, I didn't care, I told her that I couldn't be with her anymore and she was ruining her life with me.

I broke up with her. That devastated her, she failed her exam, she became crazy. I don't think I am responsible for that, I am a sociopath, I can't change that fact, I am who I am, I don't know what future holds for me.

My parents kinda know about my situation, I have never talked about this with them, but they know. After a few months, I confronted her, that was the last time we spoke, I said sorry to her. I told her that she should move on and focus on her future. And she understood me.

I know after reading this thing, you will judge me, I know that. But I don't care, I am sorry for that, I really don't, I am this person and I can't do anything about it.

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