She Kissed Me When We Were Kids And I Fell In Love But She Chose To Move On

AksharA Reddy AksharA Reddy in Culture Shock on 4 October, 2017

I don’t know how many of you would support a homosexual relationship. I know her since when we were in LKG. We didn’t talk quite often. During my 4th standard, I moved to another school and was shocked to see her there. She had moved too. She came to me smiling and talked to me. It didn’t go very well but we were friends.

Our strong friendship started from 7th standard when we used to attend tuition from the same tutor at her place. One fine day she told me that I was her best friend. In the beginning, I didn’t believe it but later on, even I started liking her so much that I fell in love with her. One day she came home. We were talking and all of a sudden she kissed me.

It was our first time and it was really beautiful. I still remember her face when she was kissing me. And later on like every couple even we had our fights and we broke up quite often but always it was her who used to come and make it up. And then a third person entered between us. It was horrible. We broke up because of her. And she moved on to that other person.
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I was furious and felt suicidal.

My mother was worried and my teachers used to counsel me often. We finished our 10th standard and I was planning to move to another city for the further education. I had called her on her birthday. We didn’t talk for a year. The following year, she said that she loved me and couldn’t have lived without me. I was happy to get back to her. She had moved to another city for her further studies and I stayed back in my hometown.

We didn’t talk for a year. The following year, she said that she loved me and couldn’t live without me. I was happy to get her back. She had moved to another city for her further studies and I stayed back in my hometown. Our long distance relationship worked well in the first year but then she again told me about her liking for another person. Later, she asked me to stop thinking about it. She tried to console me saying that she couldn’t live without me.

Our long distance relationship worked well in the first year but then she again told me about her liking for another person. Later, she asked me to stop thinking about it. She tried to console me saying that she couldn’t live without me.
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We went out for a vacation together. After coming from there, she told me about her friend back in her hostel. She confessed that she had started liking her and they both had made out. I didn’t know how to react and we didn't speak to each other for a long time.

I went to the city she lived in, as most of my relatives stayed there. She wanted to meet me and we decided to meet at her sister’s place. We spoke about nothing much and she fell asleep. Her phone was flooded with messages. When I checked, I read all her messages to her hostel mate. They were interested in each other. The other girl seemed confused but my girl was interested in her. I felt upset and I came back to my place.

She messaged me saying that she was sorry for whatever it is that she did to me. After a few days, she was back to our hometown. I met her as she was hospitalised. She later thanked me for visiting and taking care of her.

Hopefully, I asked her if we could patch up and move ahead. She said that I deserved better and that she will take a week’s time to think about it.

She later told me that her friend was dating someone else. I felt bad because she kept me waiting for the sake of that person who was already dating someone else. I was just an option. I immediately asked her to block me from everywhere. She did. She seemed to have moved on and was chasing someone who didn’t even love her like I did.

I can’t help but sit and cry like an idiot for her.