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My Working Parents Got Him Home To Take Care Of Me And I Was 6 When He First Made Me Lick It

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Every child deserves a childish childhood but not everyone is lucky enough to get one.

I was one of those unlucky ones. Here's my story.

I was the only child to my working parents. My over concerned parents had got a young boy from our village to take care of me. He was barely 13 years old when I was born. He used to be around me just like my elder brother. I called him 'Bhanu bhaiyya'. He would help me learn alphabets and when I learnt a new rhyme, he would take me around and tell everyone how I learnt the rhyme perfectly. He would learn English with me because he never got the opportunity to go to school. We lived together like siblings and he would help my mom with home chores here and there. I would always look up to him whenever I needed to talk to someone or play with someone or just go out. My parents were away all day long, I had only Bhanu bhaiyya who would feed me and play with me.

5-6 years fast forward and Bhanu bhaiyya was 18-19 years old and I was 5-6 years old. Mom was a lecturer and she was told by our neighbours to not keep a young boy to take care of a little girl but mom trusted him a lot.

She would turn a deaf ear to all of that. Even dad trusted him and most importantly, I trusted Bhaiyya too.

One afternoon, when I was supposed to be sleeping after school, I got up and went to see what Bhaiyya was doing and I saw him masturbating. Instead of getting shocked, he asked me shamelessly to come to him and I very innocently walked towards him and asked him,

"What's that thing in your hand?" And he replied "This is a chocolate. You should taste it. Lick it."

I didn't know what to do and I touched his dick with my tongue. And I licked it. Yes, I gave a blowjob to someone when I was just 6. I didn't have a clue about what I was doing but I did it because 'Bhanu bhaiyya' asked me to do it. Innocence knows nothing. Indeed. After growing up and watching porn, I realised that all that happened to me in my childhood was sexual harassment. I was shattered.

My story didn't end there. The 'chocolate licking' went on for some time and he always told me not to tell my parents about it because they wouldn't believe me and scold me. And once, my mom was shouting at me and at that time I had gone to Bhaiyya and told him "Mummy pagal hai."

He blackmailed me by saying that he'll tell my mom that I called her mad if I told her about the chocolate thing.

I became more and more submissive in front of Bhaiyya. He then came up with this new fetish of making me remove my pants and made me lie down on my stomach and he would touch my ass with his dick. Today I'm grossed out by just thinking how horrible that situation is. But at that time, I was just playing with a Barbie and he'd be busy rubbing his dick and he would run into the washroom after sometime. Now I know he used to go to ejaculate.

I have no idea why I never told mom about it. I didn't have any idea about bad gestures and good gestures. I just trusted him a lot and I sensed something was wrong when he started to blackmail me but I couldn't say anything because I was too scared.

I remember all that very vividly and I wish I could forget it like I forgot many more things from my childhood. When I remember Bhanu, I feel horrible and helpless. But I am sure of one thing, if I have a child, I won't work if my parents or my husband's parents can't take care of my children. I am definitely not leaving them at a crèche or hiring a caretaker or getting any sort of help from an outsider.

I may not have a successful career but I want my kids to have a successful childhood for sure.

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