It all started two years back. I was going through the comments on a Facebook page and I really liked his views about a post. I checked his profile and he belonged to a city that I loved and wanted to visit since long.
So, I decided to message the guy and get to know more about the place and people. It wasn’t long before we started chatting on Facebook and talked almost every day.
It had been just 15 days since we started talking when he said that he really liked me.
I didn’t believe him because such things happen online. Some people genuinely mean it but some don’t.
It had happened to me earlier too so I chose to ignore whatever he said. But as I got to know him, I really liked him.
However, I never wanted to date someone online or with absolutely no mutual friends.
I told him that nothing could happen between us and stopped talking to him for about 3 months. Somehow, we started talking on and off again. He wanted to see me but I didn't. A year went by and he still didn't give up.
It was then that I started to believe that he really wanted to be with me.
From it's never happening between us to is it really possible to be with him is what I'd started thinking. I was really scared to pursue this relationship as we were really far from each other in two different cities.
Almost two years went by with on and off chats but he never gave up. I don't know when I started to fall for him.
In these two years, he came to my city thrice but I didn't meet him because of my own insecurities.
Even then he continued to pursue me. Finally, after two years, he moved to my city for a course.
By then, I really wanted to meet him and I thought that us being in the same city will help us spend time and get to know each other. Just before he moved, he told me that he had left a better institute because it wasn't in my city.
I was really upset because I would’ve never wanted him to do it. Finally, we met. And it absolutely didn't go as I’d expected.
He just wanted to know if I would marry him or not. I wanted to take it slow. But he wanted an answer.
I didn't say anything and he thought it's a no. It was so awkward between us. That's it. It was over.
He didn't even try to know what I wanted.
It's been 20 days since this incident but it feels like ages. I miss him terribly. I cry myself to sleep every night. I'd thought he was the one for me. But I was wrong.
I am so worried about him. He made me fall for him but now he's not in my life.
I know nothing can happen between us but I still want him to be in my life.