Hey buddy! (I hope I can still call you that)
Ex… you know how much I hate this word, right?
If you still remember who I am, you must have guessed how painful it is for me to add 'Ex' to our relationship and how distressing it is to write this letter.
But you know; I've always enjoyed writing down my thoughts, sending thank you notes and posting letters to convey my true feelings.
I never thought we would end up like this. I never imagined our relationship to be an incomplete story.
A relationship that taught me what friendship and being best friends is.
Frankly, I was unaware of all this; I still am.
Those good morning and good night texts, endless calls, gossip, care, gifts, sharing our pain and silence, supporting each other, making fun of others together, leg pulling, crush stories; everything was temporary...my bad.
Yours too, equally, because we were best friends na! Is this the thing I miss now?
Or do I miss you as a person in my life?
Am I too hurt to forgive you? Or just unable to forget everything that happened and how you reacted?
I don't how you came out of it but I’ve heard that you are doing pretty well without me.
I am really happy to know this. After all, moving on is life. But you know what? I am still stuck; stuck where you left me.
I still think, actually overthink, why and what came in between?
That guy who is your best friend now? Or that ignorance you served me? Or your new friends with whom you’re enjoying your life now? Or the lies that broke my trust? I don't know!
But you know what babes, I am really thankful to you.
You are the person who taught me what friendship is, what love is, how beautiful it is to express your love towards someone, how to be positive and happy, how to express your feelings, why one should always carry a big and bright smile, how to enjoy life, make new friends and what not.
Not to forget our shopping sprees, full-fledged gossip sessions, those coffees together and all those hot guys that we eyed together... (ha ha)
Without taking much of your time, I just want to thank you for being my friend. I have learned a lot from you.
Learned how to get hurt and heal on my own, how to pick myself up when I’m low and alone.
Thank you for the few memories and many lessons. That fight and those lies made me recognize the flaws in me.
Thank you for making me realize that I am invincible, for breaking my heart merely with your words and few indirect actions.
Thank you for giving up on me for your new best friends. I hope you don't leave them like this.
All in all, thank you for being my best friend and making me a better and stronger person. It's been a few months since we spoke to each other but I guess this is what it was meant to be.
Not every relationship is meant to last forever.
Neither of us was right or wrong. I was wrong for you and you were wrong for me. Even the attempts to be like before were a failure. I am saddened but by this, I want to let you know that I have forgiven you.
This time I am selfish as I forgive you because I am upset and I can't sleep with those grudges.
It’s like a huge stone weighing on my heart and I am finally removing it now. I forgive you for everything that you did to me, for all the wrongs you were never sorry for.
Yes, this time a sorry was needed.
But I forgive you... not for you, but for myself. Thank you for being in my life. Love you always!
Take care and enjoy your life,
Your ex-best friend
P.S. I am sorry for hurting you.
But I know you are healing quickly and I wish you heal completely soon.